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This gorram cold is driving me crazy! I have blown my nose more times than I can count, and no longer have flesh on the tip. GYAH!!!!!!!!

In other health news, I’m currently stuck in a nice manic phase. I was doing nothing but sleep for weeks, but now I can’t seem to slow ( Read more... )

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Okay, doesn’t it just figure: I’m at my friend’s apartment, next time I get out of the house will probably be OhayoCon, and not only does my monthly visitor intrude, but I catch a cold, too. *pouts* Neither is being that bad, thank the Gods, but blowing my nose every few ( Read more... )

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I’m done trying to justify everything. People will believe whatever they want to, no matter how far from the truth it is, no matter how absurd it sounds. I’m done letting others think they’re allowed to dictate my life. The second you share anything about yourself online, ( Read more... )

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Why is it that everybody thinks that I know absolutely nothing about myself, or about anything else, ever? And for that matter, why do they think it best to repeatedly remind me of said fact? Do they really believe that if I’m told I’m faking everything I’ve ever done for ( Read more... )

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I had the cops called on me last night for being too suicidal.

As usual, I put how bad I felt in my Facebook status, hoping somebody would read the damn thing and actually give a shit. Call me up, give me a hug, hang with me. Something personal, you know? Well, one of my ( Read more... )

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You ever get one of those days where nonexistence sounds like a good idea? Yeah, today’s one of those. I didn’t realize I was taking this being-single thing so seriously. I mean, I shouldn’t be this lonely without a significant other, right? But I am. And boy, is it ( Read more... )

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I’m getting so scared, the closer it gets to Friday (which is the last day here before getting booted up to hell). I mean, I’m un-medicated, I won’t get to see a therapist (and if I do, it’ll be back at that place in Bellefontaine, which sucked cuz that bitch psychiatrist ( Read more... )

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I want to cut so fucking badly right now. All everybody does is tell me that I have no choices, no other way to exist. My only option is to move in with mom and John and die inside. Or I could take pills and die on the outside as well. If I do move in with them, I’m sure I ( Read more... )

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It’s the one I’ve been keeping from everybody, sometimes even from myself. I’m pretty sure most of the people who’ve met me, who’ve known me for any length of time whatsoever, will think I’m lying through my teeth, but it’s true, I promise you.

I’m not good with people, at ( Read more... )

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Cried myself to sleep last night. Haven’t done that in awhile. Just to give you an idea of how I feel lately.

I just wish something, anything would go right for once. I’m about to be homeless, which is going to force me to move in with my parents because all my friends ( Read more... )