I'm changing schools again. I just couldn't handle the online schooling option. It was far too isolating. I need to talk to the other students, and hear the teacher. I need to get the fuck out of this house. And I need normal homework, and regular tests, and actual textbooks (I fucking hate eBooks right now). Basically, online school was the worst ( Read more... )

So yeah, I finally got the answer from Ben to my "are we dating?" question. It was a no, a nice one, but still a no. I've been preparing myself for it since Saturday, so I didn't break down and cry (that was Saturday). Normally, I'd feel depressed right about, even though I'm used to getting turned by guys and girls by now. I guess all that prep ( Read more... )

I should be writing something of worth instead of an LJ entry. But my mom told me that the best way to get rid of writer's block is to write. I know that sounds contradictory, and it is a bit. Basically, if you can't write a piece of poetry, or you can't work on your novel, you get out a piece of paper and just write whatever. I figured my best ( Read more... )

So, tonight was the next session of LARP, and I think I did a teensy bit better. I still barely talked, in character and out, but I wasn't as afraid, I think. It always worries me when I get shy, cuz I almost never get shy. >_< I think I'm going to make a new character for the next session, though. I'm playing a multiple personality Malk, and the ( Read more... )

So, my bipolar has been kicking my ass lately. I fucked up in school because of it, and I think I'm about to be temporarily kicked out for a year. >_< But I hope they do, because I need that time to get my act together. I need to get my pills straight, and work on my mental faults, I need to get up before the sun goes down on a daily basis, and I ( Read more... )

So yeah, I haven't touched this LJ in almost 6 months. For those who actually give a shit, I apologize. A lot of good/bad stuff has happened since then. I'll try to remember it all. And I'll try to remember to update this thing more often. It makes for a great catharsis.

If you read my last post, you'd know that I didn't get into Wright State cuz ( Read more... )

Read the title. Okay, now, reasonings behind title. Can't go back to Wright State. Not as an actual student, that is. I owe too much money. I think the one lady in the Bursar who told me that I could go back did the same fucking thing the guy in Financial Aid did when I asked if I could drop that class and still stay at Wright State: didn't read ( Read more... )

So, I found out Thursday that I got back into Wright State. I found out Friday that my appeal to the financial department went through, and I can now receive money for school. I'm calling Monday to get my classes scheduled. My application for housing is turned in, and my $150 prepayment is paid. In other words... I'M IN! I'M GOING BACK!!!!!! MY ( Read more... )

It sucks, but here you go. I was trying to capture how good college has been to me. One of the reasons I wanna go back so badly.

CollegeShe’d never fit in ( Read more... )

I've been so sleepy lately. My psychiatrist thinks it's cuz I'm sleeping too much, but that seems hard to believe. How can you sleep too much? Ruining my perfectly good dreams with science and facts and such. >_Been playing Cooking Mama on Facebook obsessively the last few days. It's so much fun. And it's easy, so I can actually do it. Yays, go me ( Read more... )