I need someone i can bitch to. Someone i can call and vent to, someone who i can send a selfie to and say see i looked good today and he didn't even notice!
I could vent to work friends at work about work. I mean we talk about personal stuff too but i just wanted to cry on someone's shoulder. I wanted to be told, dang girl you look nice today. I ( Read more... )

I am so disappointed in my conversation with Elle about Lucy and Tom today that i don't know how to react. She sounded like a stranger. I got more sympathy and empathy from people who were practically strangers than my own child!
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Wow. So today... Well yesterday now, was a rough one. The last fewdays have been rough and stressful.
Yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of Jethro dying. I miss my kitty all the time. It sneaks up on me though- the anniversary i mean- so much is going on right now and then bamit hits me!
Thomas also started packing. Yes packing. He's moving out and ( Read more... )

So Thomas made it official. He is moving out on the first. He and two friends; Ryan and Hunter, are getting an apartment. Of course he can't tell me the name of it or exactly where it is but i assume it's because he hasn't paid much attention. I'm glad for him, it won't be easy.
I'm looking forward to having the guest/knitting room as move again, ( Read more... )

@#%&*#@$*  That hurts!  I was just loading the wood stove and dumb a$$ me tried to shove a log that was too big in and in the process burned the underside of my arm on the loading door!

I hate that.  I haven't burned myself on a wood stove in years, the oven yes, not the wood stove.

( Depressing-you've been warned )

Had a big heart to heart tonight with Elle.  It really hurt.  Don't really want to go into it but I shed many tears.  I hate feeling this way.  I feel like such a failure as a parent when it comes to her.  *sigh*  I am proud of myself for staying calm, no yelling, no arguing and I kept most of my tears in check during the conversation-only one or ( Read more... )

Elle popped in for a few minutes, and I mean a very few-less than 5.

She decided she wanted to see me for Mothers Day-a holiday I don't generally celebrate.

She came back home tonight to grab some things and stay at my parents house.  Not here. My parents were in Knoxville tonight and brought Elle home with them.  They dropped De off here and Elle ( Read more... )

Well shit.  I hate to admit it but my mother was right; I have failed my children as a mother.  I have not taught them well enough.  Maybe she's right to be worried about their eternal soul.  Especially if my "Buddist" daughter doesn't know the meaning of no, and has no idea what respect is ( Read more... )

 Ok, I don't know what to do.  I have to get this out.  I can't think straight right now.  This has been such a stressful two weeks for me.  Between getting Tony out of my house (still not completely done), he still has to come by and get the last of his boxes tomorrow, working for my dad, Elle and Catholic, money, TnCare, kids, etc.  My life and ( Read more... )