i feel as if i were a flame cupped between palms and suddenly i'm flickering.

so much seems to be happening that i don't understand and i feel farther away from you, from everyone, than ever.

what's happening to you? to them? to me? to us? to all of us?

never mind; it probably shouldn't matter.

i have that horrid "alone" feeling...

 I am becoming too clingy again,
touching what I can't grab though my nails are digging digging digging until i am sure there is flesh beneath keratin lids whose gene tags do not read E. Soileau (Clearance, 80% Off!) and there must be moons on your skin to match the stars you drew on his.

if you put us all together we make the texas sky, as massive ( Read more... )

for the first time in my entire life and hopefully the last because i really don't like them, i'm going to quote the clash ( Read more... )

I didn't want to see that, I didn't want to read that, I don't want to hear anymore. I'm done with this. I'm sick of it. I'm through with it ( Read more... )

you will not bury me.
i may be nothing important to you,
but that can't stop me forever.

...back here, again
on the same earth.
i feel sick and i think i've lost feeling in my legs,
but it isn't as if it matters.
none of it matters.
nothing matters,
because i am nothing.

my stomach is twisting.
why should i give a shit when i'm the only one who does? come on epiphani, get a fucking grip. it's been two months and everybody's moved on by now ( Read more... )

A2 showed me this gorgeous song ( Read more... )

 the truth is,

1. A1: I quit the club because of you. Not because James was neglecting it; we could easily have wrestled it out of his hands as they were already loosening in their desperation to curl around Alexandria. The truth is that I finally grew so tired of your vacillations and your eviscerations and your tendernesses and all the fucking ( Read more... )

i can't wait
for
someone to hear me
can't wait
for
someone to touch me can't wait
for
ever to be done
and forever alone
i can't wait
for
someone to feel me
can't wait
for
someone to heal me can't wait
for
ever to be done
and forever alone

i sing to you and drowsiness shimmers on your skin like layers of spun sugar crystal and in the back of my mind i want to touch my lips to it, just briefly, long enough to imprint it in the minute creases of my lips so that when the sun rises and all these beautiful shards reassemble into the big picture that does not include me i can lick and ( Read more... )