OK so i really feeling depressed today, but not for the usual reasons. I can't cry, i was listening to one of my favorite songs and I felt so bad. So bad in fact I wanted to cry to just feel something and I can't any more. The very fact that I can't cry is depressing me so much, to the fact I really do feel low and just down right unimportant about ( Read more... )

Well like usual I am lazy with this post I was going to post this a week ago, but I just ended up getting lazy and not posting. I was thinking of what really turns me on, I have been thinking of several sexual storey ideas but not really put them into a written form, I was hoping this would get me back into the writing mood ( Read more... )

The first one I will start off with is the one who has stuck with me through thick and thin. I have put her through a lot and she still comes back for more, good and bad. I do not know what really to say about her she cares about me that is for sure and I make it quite clear the anything between us is a very open relationship yet I guess I see it ( Read more... )

So I started a new job working at the ICBC in north Vancouver, it is a cool jut but I am worried I am not totally into the job and one of the people higher up said as if a shark smelling blood if he got the hint for one second I did not want to be there he would make my life a living hell, so I got that to look forward too. I need to get back into ( Read more... )

So I am thinking back about regret, like usual I have a giant pile of it but what can you do. I was thinking of a girl from college, well several but this one was on my mind all night while I was at work and not singing music from Evil Dead the Musical. The girls name is Kristin, and I was really into her or I defiantly would not be thinking about ( Read more... )

One of the first things that make me happy is being able to knock on a door and tell the people inside they have to leave because they are making too much noise and this is the third warning so everyone has to leave. Then getting to escort them out of the building after checking out the very sexy stripper they have hired ( Read more... )

Well I am officially done with school I stopped going and I really am not even going to try to even register for next term. I do not know why I just lost my passion for school; I am thirty years old and have nothing really to show for my life. My friends have accomplishments, have dreams and goals. I have no real passion towards anything, I have no ( Read more... )

Ok so of late the two thinks I have been feeling are depression and sexuality, lucky me being single and feeling like a hermit so I am even worse at picking up anyone than usual. Bonus I found out about myself when I jack myself on energy drinks I get jittery and my heart beats really fast but either I am noticing more or at least females are ( Read more... )

So I am sorry i have not added a entry for a while I moved to Vancouver and things have been a little hectic with me finding a place getting into school and all that. I have noticed there are plenty of things I have about Van and plenty I like I am not sure if I feel like expressing them yet but here is my first entry in this big city ( Read more... )

Personal Sins

So like usual something raw and unrelated to my life but shows enough similarity to my life for me to associate. I was watching “Californication” a very good show but the main character is such an asshole. I of cores associate with him in the fact that I am as much of an asshole just to neurotic to put my dick in anything that moves ( Read more... )