Questioning my own peice of Vancouver
So I am sorry i have not added a entry for a while I moved to Vancouver and things have been a little hectic with me finding a place getting into school and all that. I have noticed there are plenty of things I have about Van and plenty I like I am not sure if I feel like expressing them yet but here is my first entry in this big city.
The first thing I noticed, I don't care if you get offended, is that back in Grand Forks I was a Nimpho, really if I was nto getting sex or holding off to get sex I was literally jerking off three times a day. Now come to think of it if you calculate three times a day since age what 10, that is a lot of sexuall activity. Anyway so I move here, and granted I have some really erotic dreams of late but all the tiem I am concious, here in Vancouver, I am not sexual at all. I have no had the need to jerk off once and even though I am checkign out girls left and right it is like my sexuality has just died. Why am I telling you all this, well one my best freind is not around and not is not moving with me. Two i just do not have anyone I can bitch and complain too. Three there is no girl I am close enough around here I can spend some close time, even though I am sexually dead, just to talk too. I am not sure if it is the big city or what. I just can't seem to get a rise otu of anything around here, am I finaly loosing th elast bit of my humanity I had or is this some weird evolution of Justin that mean I am maturing to look mor ethen just sex. God forbid I have somethign sexual that is making me impudent, if so I am fully ready to kill my self.
So this friday is my STONE TEMPLE PILOTS concert, I am not sure if the two people who actually read this journal are even goign but if they are we should meet up. I am icited it just seem my empathy is dead as well I shoudl be freaking out because my favorite band is back together and playing at GM Place, but it seem like I do nto think it is real or it has not kicked in. If I am this dead and numb when I am at the concert I will be really pissed off.
Oh well I could have more to bitch about here in Vancouver but that will be for next time, I am off to do a tour of the College I got acepted to, Langera College. What to ghet used to the place before I get lost every day before classes.
The first thing I noticed, I don't care if you get offended, is that back in Grand Forks I was a Nimpho, really if I was nto getting sex or holding off to get sex I was literally jerking off three times a day. Now come to think of it if you calculate three times a day since age what 10, that is a lot of sexuall activity. Anyway so I move here, and granted I have some really erotic dreams of late but all the tiem I am concious, here in Vancouver, I am not sexual at all. I have no had the need to jerk off once and even though I am checkign out girls left and right it is like my sexuality has just died. Why am I telling you all this, well one my best freind is not around and not is not moving with me. Two i just do not have anyone I can bitch and complain too. Three there is no girl I am close enough around here I can spend some close time, even though I am sexually dead, just to talk too. I am not sure if it is the big city or what. I just can't seem to get a rise otu of anything around here, am I finaly loosing th elast bit of my humanity I had or is this some weird evolution of Justin that mean I am maturing to look mor ethen just sex. God forbid I have somethign sexual that is making me impudent, if so I am fully ready to kill my self.
So this friday is my STONE TEMPLE PILOTS concert, I am not sure if the two people who actually read this journal are even goign but if they are we should meet up. I am icited it just seem my empathy is dead as well I shoudl be freaking out because my favorite band is back together and playing at GM Place, but it seem like I do nto think it is real or it has not kicked in. If I am this dead and numb when I am at the concert I will be really pissed off.
Oh well I could have more to bitch about here in Vancouver but that will be for next time, I am off to do a tour of the College I got acepted to, Langera College. What to ghet used to the place before I get lost every day before classes.