It's weird... the past couple of days I feel like i'm just... I dont' know, fading away.  Like I don't really exist, that I'm here, but no one really cares or notices me.  I often feel like i could vanish tomorrow and no one, except for the my co-workers, would even notice I'm gone (and then only because they'd be inconvienced with having to find ( Read more... )

So, it's been quiet for this particular shift. Being a Sunday and fall, there wasn't much going on. Only had about 21 rooms rented and everyone pretty much tucked themselves in early and didn't start climbing out of bed till morning ( Read more... )

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, all tumbling around in my head: things to do, things I want to do, things I'm obsessing over, things I'm trying NOT to obsess over... it's all a bit crazy inside my head sometimes.

We had the time switch today, had to change some of the clocks here at work, and I’m going to need to do that to a couple of ( Read more... )

I'm reading an LJ friend's entries and there's this one where she talked about how she missed her friends, because, with the exception of her boyfriend, her other friends have moved off or in the case of one couple, split up.  They were a tight group, I guess.  I started to post a comment about that when I suddenly found all I could really think of ( Read more... )

Ever see something so beautiful it just breaks your heart to look at it?  I did, about two weeks ago.  She was in the computer lab where my digital photo (and digital video, same room) classes where held.  Her name is Jamie, she's a willowly thin Asian girl with long, silky black hair.  I've seen pretty girls before, but there was something just so ( Read more... )

Was crashing hard this afternoon... I don't know.. not sure what to say about it.  Felt sad and whatnot.  I'm also a bit angry myself, I went to Wal-Mart to get some things I needed and (as usual) ended up buying a few things (food, of course) I didn't.

But, fuck me, all the healthier shit is more expensive today.  For instance, the plumb red ( Read more... )

As most anyone who's read even a few of these entries knows, I'm a very introspective person.  Probably a bit too introspective at times.  I'm always thinking about this and that, often about the past and whatnot.  I'm trying to piece together all the hows and whys about myself, things I do, way I react to certain things, habits, etc, etc.  My ( Read more... )

"What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive?"
    -Clay Aikin, Invisible

NOTE: Part of this entry I wrote in Word around 5:50 this afternoon...

Speaking of which, just had to do a hell of a lot of reformatting ( Read more... )

Feeling a bit depressed, not 100% sure why, maybe it was partly the book I just got done reading, or maybe it's just things in general.  Got home from work and, other than my previous journal entry, I haven't really done much other than read.  Was wanting to work on a video on the computer for a bit, but just felt too tired to stay on for very long ( Read more... )

Gosh, I don't even know where to begin...

Guess I'll start with some background, there's a new girl at the place I work at.  We seemed to be getting along okay, and I dunno, I was starting to think maybe she likes me.  I mean, among other things she'd always have this little smile on her face when she said, "Hi" to me, plus the fact she always seem ( Read more... )