When trauma happens, when crisis happens, it can freeze us. In terms of myself, alcoholism and obesity trapped me as a 17 year old and now I am 26 ( Read more... )

karaoke continues to be a large part of my life. tonight, if it does come to pass, will be karaoke #13, which means that for the past 13 thursdays I've karaoked. of course, this aspect of life is so large, it has seeped into other days. singing is still a very pleasurable activity, but it is losing some of its lustre. music is crucial; music is ( Read more... )

Did I mention my recent adventure with a married woman ( Read more... )

Today is 9.1.2. To elaborate: it is the 9th cycle (4 week increments!) of the year 2012. The 1 stands for week 1, and well, the 2 is because I am still adhering to American calendars and honouring Monday as day 2 of the week. I believe it was in 2007 that I first concocted the notion of chunking up the 52 week year into 4 week increments, which ( Read more... )

Careful reflection indicates there are various reasons why I shouldn't update livejournal, or have one anymore. Since the beginning, this began as a vanity project. Most of my life I have felt ignored, and my response to counteract that has been to shout. And shout loudly. As I said before, from 2001-2011 I sort of used Dark Side of the Moon as my ( Read more... )

We shall not forget the past, nor wish to close the door on it.I tried to articulate that idea early into sobriety to someone. The outpatient program I did from April to June of this year did not necessarily help me work the steps or work on the fact that I was (and still am) an asshole working to get better. Spiritual progress was not made; I ( Read more... )

Even though I got plenty of rest recently, what with not going to the meeting yesterday, cutting out of the high school early, and getting a good amount of sleep last night, I still feel like poop. But, that's okay. I've still gotten more done than I usually do on so-called productive days. That's not to say I don't have moments of productivity, ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is Bastille Day, which, for those not in the know, is considered one of the opening salvos of the French Revolution. I always found it to be a rather important day. Also, tomorrow would have been Ingmar Bergman's 93rd Birthday. I find it hard to believe it has been almost four years since he passed, but so it goes. But, for sake of this ( Read more... )

Honestly, I only titled it "part II" because when I went to type those lyrics in, it came up that I've already titled an entry "time's tide will smother you..." So, fret not! There is no continuity between most of these entries ( Read more... )

I'm not sure when to delineate when this weekend began. I'm not sure I want to trudge any of it up in detail, either ( Read more... )