Recently me and Simon have been watching The Food Hospital. I've been quite enjoying it, apart from the self-satisfied and slightly creepy doctors and dietitians/nutritionists (why are they always weird on TV...?!). It's nice to think that maybe if you have a health problem you have some control over it. However what REALLY bugs me is that they ( Read more... )

Outcome of ME clinic appointment (i know i will forget if i don't write this down..):
- i am allowed to exercise! Hurrah! Only if it's graded. And only if it's gentle enough that i can't feel 'the burn' in my muscles
- the benefits of an energy-draining day out (benefits being psychological wellbeing) outway the negatives (being bedbound the next day ( Read more... )

Sometimes i do wonder about 'healthy eating'. Friends who eat nothing but junkfood and don't put on an ounce of weight, don't have any health problems...and then there's me who eats quite healthily and is overweight and unwell. Meh.
Usually after eating my evening meal my stomach swells up like a balloon and i look like i'm pregnant. Tonight i ate a ( Read more... )

( what i've eaten today )

( Eating/weight stuff )

Today has been one of those infuriating days when i've been so tired and low on energy that i've done nothing. I've got so many things i want and need to do but no chance. I went down to the kitchen for a cup of tea at midday and when returning up the 2 flights of stairs to my room i realised that i would not be able to do that again for a few ( Read more... )

I finished Shoot the Damn Dog by Sally Brampton. I think it's the best depression book i've read. She describes the experience of depression so eloquently, explains the causes, and gives advice too. My only criticism would be that she wrote it from a position of privelege - she was a top magazine editor/writer so she could afford private healthcare ( Read more... )

I can't believe that i turn 22 in a few minutes.

This med-increase-related not-well-ness is easing off slowly. I've been able to put away my sickbowl, and can wander around without having to grab onto things for balance much.

Earlier i was out bench-hopping (where i walk from bench to bench, and sit down to regain the energy and get control of ( Read more... )

I found out today that when i was first diagnosed as having a 'mental illness' my mum saw the doctors without me, and they asked her if there was any possibility i had been a victim of sexual abuse.
That's the kindof very intrusive question you get used to as a mental health patient, but mental health stuff always shocked and scared my mum and dad ( Read more... )

This somewhat-increased depression is having a weird effect on my eating habits. I'm both disinterested in food and comfort-eating at once. Not a good combination ( Read more... )