summer is over, i can tell because it's cold at night now and my finger nails get blue a lot lately. i wasn't prepared for autumn, fall if you will, to be back so soon. i think i still loved joshua at this time last year...which is foreign to me now ( Read more... )

"When I commented about you being little i was meaning that you  look like you are getting thin in your pictures. Your face is so tiny. Beautiful as always but thinnner:) "

Zing. I really don't think I look different. When I look down at myself or in the mirror I see no difference at this point. Hopefully that will change though.

It is so difficult to deal with Jaime's frustration. It's beginning to make things worse, I do not feel like I am capable of making him happy - he swears up and down that I do, but it is one of those things I need to be able to see and not just hear him say. It makes it worse for me because it starts to make me focus more on the negative things I ( Read more... )

Jaime is stressed out lately and has a hard time not lashing out when he is, me being on the other end. I can't help but feel like I do something to prevoke it, though he says it's not me and apologizes for his bad moods. I miss when we were happier. But I guess it is rather frustrating to go from having everything all completely set with our ( Read more... )

Sometimes I forget the days recently, but I believe today is a Wednesday. As it was last night that I stayed up to watch Big Brother, even though I was feeling under the weather all day. I need a job, I hate how short on funds I am lately, unable to save anything and just making ends meet. Thankfully I do not have to pay rent or anything like that ( Read more... )

I have a weight loss goal of 12lbs for now.

i can't imagine a better time to really settle down and do a cleanse of my mind and body. i am out of work which means i have a lot of time to myself and i have a lot of time to think and write and wrap my mind around the words of those i hold closest. perhaps, i will not over think everything this time and find a little piece of sanity as i ( Read more... )

hello new diet ( Read more... )

I am reading, She's Come Undone, by Wally Lamb. So far it is lovely, I am only on chapter three but it is the only book I have been able to actually not become bored of in the first twenty pages in a while. Nicholle brought it for me the day of our wedding ( Read more... )

I finally went and picked Corey up around 5:30am, which means I ended up falling asleep for a little under two hours. The thing is, now that I'm awake the idea of climbing back into my bed snuggling in wearing Jaime's t-shirt and my underwear doesn't really curb my appetite. I will most likely go back to bed for a little while because there's not ( Read more... )