It's cold and it's Autumn and it's beautiful. Finally.

i can't imagine a better time to really settle down and do a cleanse of my mind and body. i am out of work which means i have a lot of time to myself and i have a lot of time to think and write and wrap my mind around the words of those i hold closest. perhaps, i will not over think everything this time and find a little piece of sanity as i ( Read more... )

Your Letter gave me more delight, than any thing in the world but yourself could do; indeed I am almost astonished that any absent one should have that luxurious power over my senses which I feel. Even when I am not thinking of you I receive your influence and a tenderer nature steeling upon me. All my thoughts, my unhappiest days and nights have I ( Read more... )

this time next week i will be married and my name will have been changed everywhere important. about 7pm tomorrow and i will probably be on my way back to our town completely married and completely happy ( Read more... )

Sitting in a large circle with all the kids who you use to be friends with, who knew who you were before is strange. Strange when they all try to pass it to you, even after you politely decline; strange because no matter how long has passed these people will still love me and sit with me in the grass. Mostly Extravaganja was strange because why the ( Read more... )

time for a little more of an honest entry, as i am sure that i may have been confusing people. first i want to say how much i love jaime, it's a lot. he means the world to me and i couldn't be happier with him, i can't imagine being with out him he is my other half in every way. we compliment one another, we just fit. and i want to be with him, i ( Read more... )

"If it's All One then it doesn't matter what direction you travel in.... - Buddha"
If there is no way out of the labyrinth then it shouldn't matter which course I take.

We are engaged.

Honestly, what merits effort? Honestly, what the fuck happened to honesty? Honestly, am I ever going to be really happy? Honestly...is there a thing out there that is not temporary? And if so, where is mine?

I just want to note that I didn't talk about it once. But I had a really good weekend with the people I spent time with. They made me laugh and smile and be generally happy even though Saturday (01/10/09) was the two year anniversary of Nick's Death. It doesn't feel like it's been two years...and yet it almost does feel like it has been two years. ( Read more... )

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