I guess I feel as I always have when I am feeling as pensive as I have been these last few weeks. With how crazy everything was on the 4th and then days later having Nate pass from complications, how could I not? I felt this way in February around my birthday and decided to let the sails change my direction. I find that though I am in a different ( Read more... )

I feel better the last few days, more grounded to earth if you will. Picture this: I am doing something I've always romanticized doing but never really did before. I'm sitting in Panera eating my cheddar broccoli soup with ear phones and using my lap top in the corner of the cafe (Panera is sort of a cafe/bakery right?) But I'm loving it. When I ( Read more... )

memorial day weekend 2009: grand ( Read more... )

oh mead, mead, mead ( Read more... )

Driving home wide awake at 11:40pm tonight all I could really think about was now bright the moon and stars were and how much I missed Nick. I will attempt to go see him tomorrow and hope the snow isn't too bad. I'll wear my boots just in case though.

In my previous post I jumped the gun and wrote about finishing Looking For Alaska by John Green before I actually had. I had about fifteen pages, give or take, left. As I finished the book I was struck and I had to sit there in silence for a while before I turned the book over and saw that it was published in 2005. If anyone is interested in ( Read more... )

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I'm working right now and I should be entering information for Harvard Business School...but I am anxious and I can't concentrate and I have a lot of thoughts I would like to address at the moment. It is snowing like crazy out, but this was expected ( Read more... )

I just want to note that I didn't talk about it once. But I had a really good weekend with the people I spent time with. They made me laugh and smile and be generally happy even though Saturday (01/10/09) was the two year anniversary of Nick's Death. It doesn't feel like it's been two years...and yet it almost does feel like it has been two years. ( Read more... )

As I'm sorting through the mail I received today, two Christmas cards and a bank statement. Both of the Christmas cards were from people close to my heart. One a woman I worked with at Buckley whom I cared a great deal for and it makes me over-joyed with happiness that she thought about me ( Read more... )