California is beautiful, for the most part. I love being here and I love that Jaime and I are away from Massachusetts. I honestly wish I didn't have to go home...let alone home without Jaime. My whole life is going to change, it's like I finally found someone who wanted to spend time with me - not that a few people don't that are back home now - ( Read more... )

I just want to note that I didn't talk about it once. But I had a really good weekend with the people I spent time with. They made me laugh and smile and be generally happy even though Saturday (01/10/09) was the two year anniversary of Nick's Death. It doesn't feel like it's been two years...and yet it almost does feel like it has been two years. ( Read more... )

They are all four being charged with attempted murder, among other charges. Two of them are my friends and two of them loved Nick. And this is what I think about. Mike crashed the car and left the scene leaving Justin and Nick in the back seat unable to get out on their own. Nick died before being removed from the scene and Justin was in ICU for a ( Read more... )

I imagine the feelings of two people meeting again after many years. In the past they spent some time together, and therefore they think they are linked by the same experience, the same recollections. The same recollections? That's where the misunderstanding starts: they don’t have the same recollections; each of them retains two or three small ( Read more... )

Oh my gosh, am I excited to have One Tree Hill back in my life again. I feel like it's one of the only things to calm my nerves this week ( Read more... )

The idea of being without you is what scares me the most. Still to this day I think about you more than you'll ever know or be able to understand. I miss you and writing this out is bring tears to my eyes and there's a lump slowly forming in my throat. We haven't spoke in over 3 years, how do you just walk away from that without a second thought ( Read more... )

so yeah.. it's like this.. i could lose days thinking about you.

ps: remind me never to forget you always.

"okay bye"
"oh wow, you're so enthusiastic"
"i'm never enthusiastic when you leave me"

i don't know what to do.

"its weird how you anticipate the things that you will miss before you go away. and then when you really do-- you end up missing things you never thought you would." - Jenn ( Read more... )