I sit here listening to music, staring out the window at the grey sky and I don't know how I got here. Was it a gradual happening or sudden ( Read more... )

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today i wasn't as lucky to hear from jaime - however, shanna and i took a nice two hour walk and it's been smooth sailing as far as the fast is concerned. today is day one of ten and probably the only day i'm going to allow myself to have coffee as my body reacts terribly to the caffeine when i have not had anything solid to eat in a while ( Read more... )

I finally went and picked Corey up around 5:30am, which means I ended up falling asleep for a little under two hours. The thing is, now that I'm awake the idea of climbing back into my bed snuggling in wearing Jaime's t-shirt and my underwear doesn't really curb my appetite. I will most likely go back to bed for a little while because there's not ( Read more... )

Last night Shanna and I made red white and blue drinks. I can't recall the last time I was as drunk as I was last night. Overall it was a good time, it was a really nice night weather wise - however, the sky was overcast so sitting on the pic nic table with Nick wasn't as enjoyable as it could have been ( Read more... )

i have paid all my bills with the check i received from my job when they laid me off and now i have $190.74 until some form of payment comes in. who knows what that will be, either unemployment or if i find a new job fast enough ( Read more... )

Now comes the waiting, the silence and the loneliness. I am here and he is not. I talked to Jaime until the bus got there and until they took his phone from him. He will not be able to call for at least two weeks. I have my small group of people I can turn to for support but I haven't really talked about this yet, I haven't really wanted to cry for ( Read more... )

I haven't even been home twenty four hours and I hate it here already. It is humid and everything feels weird knowing Jaime isn't here - everything feels just empty. Honestly I don't really have a lot here, my grand parents a few friends and now in addition Jaime's family...but really, a job that is going no where and paying me dirt, my husband isn ( Read more... )

i simply don't care about drama anymore. it's not worth my time to acknowledge it nor can i imagine that it is worth someone elses time to create it, especially when we are at the ages we are at; however, i can't assume other people feel the same way ( Read more... )

California is beautiful, for the most part. I love being here and I love that Jaime and I are away from Massachusetts. I honestly wish I didn't have to go home...let alone home without Jaime. My whole life is going to change, it's like I finally found someone who wanted to spend time with me - not that a few people don't that are back home now - ( Read more... )