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[kateywaslike]

It is so difficult to deal with Jaime's frustration. It's beginning to make things worse, I do not feel like I am capable of making him happy - he swears up and down that I do, but it is one of those things I need to be able to see and not just hear him say. It makes it worse for me because it starts to make me focus more on the negative things I think about myself. I am starting to become a lot more irrational which makes me feel better in it's own ways. It's a comfort zone, the less I nourish my body the better I think feel about everything. The better it makes everything in a certain sense, you wouldn't get it.

I just want at least one thing I can count on to make me feel a little bit better.