These past two years have been going way better for me. I don't know if there's really a reason why, but I feel a lot more grounded and ready to face life. I did have a recent crying fit, but I might post about that later. I play trumpet a lot and have decided that's what I want to do. I'm a senior this year and got accepted to a college with a ( Read more... )

It's so weird to even think that word. It had never really made its way into my vocabulary, so when it hit me out of nowhere... well, it hit me ( Read more... )

  Just a couple of days ago, around 2:00am, it hit me how lonely I am. I'm having some of the best friends I never see anymore over this coming weekend. We've had some really fun parties in the past, but I don't know if this one will be particularly good. I'm sensing a nice emotional breakdown happening sometime before the end. That could be good, ( Read more... )

I've never been this dramatic before. Is this high school? I thought I had already taken the brunt of my hormones. My friends were my anchor, and they kept me grounded. Being away from them has left me floating away. I hate hearing about how their relationships complicate and change. I used to think it was because I just want everyone to love each ( Read more... )

I just got back from a birthday party that disintegrated very early into five people reading shit jokes and old pick up lines off their phones, as well as showing assorted memes throughout the whole thing. Offensive jokes were told, despite the hostess being practically in tears and begging for them to stop. Half the people in question were (gasp) ( Read more... )

It's 1:45AM and I'm still awake. I'm even kind of crying, which is really strange because I rarely cry. I'm just too fucking stressed out to sleep, I guess. I'm not good at finals week.

I stayed home all day today because I would mostly miss review and would get a chance to catch up, but instead I slept and fucked around on the internet all day. ( Read more... )

I just had like a girly deep conversation for the first time in forever. Nothing too deep, yknow, but it was nice. Today was a good day.

School was school, but after school I was invited with some upperclassmen to go get lunch and stuff. A junior girl who lives in my neighborhood drove me. It was the best time I've had in a while. I haven't laughed ( Read more... )

And no, before you assume, that is not some melodramatic title to lead into my wallowing in self pity. No, it's simply a marker for anyone who happens to be wondering what sort of things I like. I think I'll edit this as time goes on, and who knows, there might even be some vague system of organization.

THINGS (THAT I LIKE)

My Chemical Romance
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Now I'm not quite one of those hardcore neopets addicts, but I do play. Regularly. I was astounded to find out that there's this whole community of people who play seriously and are pretty much obsessed. These people are some of my favorites. When I was littler, I once made like 10k neopoints. My next door neighbor told me I was up there with The ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure I don't even know how to fucking blog right. This is basically an online diary, except instead of actual feelings it just contains boring recounts of my day. Or, it would if I posted regularly. heheh. Oh well. If I interested anyone, I suppose he'd stick around. I guess I'm open to talking if anyone wants to. I've got facebook, aim ( Read more... )