The first step is in admitting you have a problem
I've never been this dramatic before. Is this high school? I thought I had already taken the brunt of my hormones. My friends were my anchor, and they kept me grounded. Being away from them has left me floating away. I hate hearing about how their relationships complicate and change. I used to think it was because I just want everyone to love each other and be happy, but now I think it's because I see them so rarely and don't get the chance to develop or change anything. I think I'm jealous. Maybe lonely is a better word.
Is it because I'm not letting anybody in here? I thought I was. Rather, I thought I wasn't doing anything different from before. The people here are seeming less willing to be receptive. That's probably how I seem to them, actually. I've changed since I got here. I left my friends confident and happy with who I was. That gave me such a lift- it was something special so few people have. Surprise, surprise, only about a year of high school drained me. I guess this is real life, so I better figure out how to function in it. I've got these next two years with my friends, and I'll be damned if I don't take advantage of them, cause I don't know how I'm going to work afterward.
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