LONELY LONELY LONELY
It's so weird to even think that word. It had never really made its way into my vocabulary, so when it hit me out of nowhere... well, it hit me.
That was never anything I'd use to describe myself. Not back in the young years of elementary school, when, in hindsight, I never really had many real friends. Not even in the past few years, when other words had worked their way into my repertoire. Mostly, just sad. But I finally figured out why I've been so sad for so long. I'm not accepted here like I was with them. Even with my good friends here it has become a situation of fighting for the spot of "better friend" and not the cohesive total-is-more-than-the-sum-of-the-parts friendships we all had.
That was never anything I'd use to describe myself. Not back in the young years of elementary school, when, in hindsight, I never really had many real friends. Not even in the past few years, when other words had worked their way into my repertoire. Mostly, just sad. But I finally figured out why I've been so sad for so long. I'm not accepted here like I was with them. Even with my good friends here it has become a situation of fighting for the spot of "better friend" and not the cohesive total-is-more-than-the-sum-of-the-parts friendships we all had.