Brighter
These past two years have been going way better for me. I don't know if there's really a reason why, but I feel a lot more grounded and ready to face life. I did have a recent crying fit, but I might post about that later. I play trumpet a lot and have decided that's what I want to do. I'm a senior this year and got accepted to a college with a fantastic trumpet teacher that promises a lot. Senior year is pretty easy if you just do your shit. Schools add a bunch of fluff to keep the seniors from just giving up.
I had been getting kinda bummed and feeling really lonely for the first time in about a year this last fall. I didn't realize how close I had grown with the class above me, nor how devastated I would be when they left. It was very empty for a while. I didn't have many friends here and for some reason most of the girls my age had decided that I was some sort of enemy. It made the first few months really hard. Thankfully, I've probably started being friendlier and they've been a little more accepting, so I have a few friends here again. Every once in a while I talk to or see my friends from middle school. I still wish we did that more often.
There are big things going on in my life now! I made the all-suburban band in my junior year and this year! I also managed to score 3rd chair in my all-state band this year. I'm incredibly proud of myself. I work really hard and believe I have become some sort of trumpet goddess. I was also contracted with the Blue Stars Drum and Bugle Corps. I am so unbelievably excited for this. I just came back from a weekend camp last night. They are so picky about all this uncredibly tiny details and we spend so much time working so hard on making one of them PERFECT. This is exactly what I've been looking for since freshman year. Maybe if I'm lucky, I'll be able to find the family that I seem to have lost, and if I'm really lucky, myself, too.
If nothing else, I've at least already gotten a lot better at trumpet.
I had been getting kinda bummed and feeling really lonely for the first time in about a year this last fall. I didn't realize how close I had grown with the class above me, nor how devastated I would be when they left. It was very empty for a while. I didn't have many friends here and for some reason most of the girls my age had decided that I was some sort of enemy. It made the first few months really hard. Thankfully, I've probably started being friendlier and they've been a little more accepting, so I have a few friends here again. Every once in a while I talk to or see my friends from middle school. I still wish we did that more often.
There are big things going on in my life now! I made the all-suburban band in my junior year and this year! I also managed to score 3rd chair in my all-state band this year. I'm incredibly proud of myself. I work really hard and believe I have become some sort of trumpet goddess. I was also contracted with the Blue Stars Drum and Bugle Corps. I am so unbelievably excited for this. I just came back from a weekend camp last night. They are so picky about all this uncredibly tiny details and we spend so much time working so hard on making one of them PERFECT. This is exactly what I've been looking for since freshman year. Maybe if I'm lucky, I'll be able to find the family that I seem to have lost, and if I'm really lucky, myself, too.
If nothing else, I've at least already gotten a lot better at trumpet.