To work tomorrow, I mean.  The past 2 weeks at work have been awful.  I'm frustrated, embarrassed, and angry and maybe even scared all at the same time.  Today was a back-and-forth between vomiting or crying. I'm not sure which ranks higher on the indignity scale. Crying won out. At least I managed to not do either until I got to my car. 

My boss wants to send me to a 2-day workshop in a few months to improve my business communication skills.  It's in another state.  The company will pay for airfare, hotel, and food in addition to the conference fee.  I feel guilty about what the whole thing will cost, and wonder if there is someone else who should attend so we could maybe split the ( Read more... )

I try to not stress so much about work, really.  However, I'm in definite fear of being let go...of not getting my yearly contract renewed...of being fired...you get the drift.

I've had about a week to mull it over and freak out.  One of my recent projects went bad.  There were a lot of factors involved, but I did play a part in my own screw-up.  ( Read more... )

Sooo busy at work lately.  Enough overtime that I basically worked an extra couple of days, I think.  The good news is that today the mad rush seems to have finally ended.  NO sneaking into the office this weekend, yay.

However, I do have a couple of proofreading projects to finish before Monday.  One is 4 pages total, the other is 25.  D'oh!  Why ( Read more... )

I had my 90-day evaluation yesterday at work.  It was supposed to be the end of my probation period, but my supervisor has decided to extend it by another 60 days.  I got the same old stuff I've been hearing for much of my life -- I am not assertive enough, not communicating enough, still acting overwhelmed, and not reaching my full potential.

What ( Read more... )

Sent out my first sort-of solo proposal at work today.  Still needed some assistance toward the end, but at least it got out on time.  I just hope I didn't accidentally overlook or misinterpret some legalese, and neglect to include some vital piece of info.  I will know if I still have a job by next week when the client opens the proposal.

Have a ( Read more... )

The work week was a little strange for me.  It was all right, even though I got flustered a few times and made fixable mistakes, and even had what I later believe was an anxiety attack.

See, at work, I guess I'm still suffering from some performance anxiety.  I believe I've improved from the week before in regard to my social interactions, ( Read more... )

Science News
I haven't linked any science news in a while.  This is cool though.
The true purpose of the appendix may have been found!
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/10/05/appendix.purpose.ap/index.html?section=cnn_latest

And YAY science! 
Gore, Scientists share Nobel Peace Prize
I'm glad so much research isn't being ignored.  As much.  It still boggles ( Read more... )

I've decided to leave this post unlocked since I don't directly mention the workplace or badmouth it in any way.  It is a good place to work, honest.  Heck, I leave my Family Drama stuff unlocked, so this is nothing.  This is just me.

Today I had my first Work Drama. Or maybe Trauma. :-P  I'm exaggerating, as logically I know it's not that bad.

It ( Read more... )

WORK:
One month already, wow!  The pace has really picked up, but I believe I'm adapting well enough.  Most of the nervous energy from being in a new environment seems to have simmered off.  I'm actually sleeping fairly regularly now.  I can't remember when was the last time I had a lengthy period of normal sleeping patterns.  Huh.  Amazing what the ( Read more... )