you're sending me mixed messages, baby
My boss wants to send me to a 2-day workshop in a few months to improve my business communication skills. It's in another state. The company will pay for airfare, hotel, and food in addition to the conference fee. I feel guilty about what the whole thing will cost, and wonder if there is someone else who should attend so we could maybe split the cost of a hotel room and travel if we drove instead of flying.
I was so convinced that I was walking on eggshells, about to get sacked for not quite fitting into the job. Of course, I feel very fortunate that my boss wants to continue investing in me despite my less-than-stellar moments.
And maybe this is my vanity showing itself, but last week I got positive comments from several people when I gave my introductory speech at a speech club I joined at work. Usually I'm petrified of speaking in front of people, yet apparently I pulled this one off without looking nervous at all, plus I was funny. My boss was in attendance because she'd asked me to invite her when I got around to doing it. Basically she said it was great to see my personality shine through during the speech because I'm usually so quiet that she can't really read me. Gee, if I had known that giving this speech would boost my popularity so much, I would've done it sooner!
Makes me wonder if I come off as this totally awkward cold bitch at work. :-P I'm just quiet, and tend to be serious. Or anxious. And I don't get much opportunity display my sense of humor in daily work. I guess people don't drop by my office just to say "hi" very often because I don't seem welcoming. It sucks to be misunderstood -- no wonder I went through a Morrissey-immersion phase last week.
Ah well, at least I am chiseling away at the possibly unpleasant label I've been stuck with at work...may the word spread outside the speech club that I do indeed have a sense of humor and that I am not some kind of idiot savant who can write but has no personality or social skills whatsoever.
I was so convinced that I was walking on eggshells, about to get sacked for not quite fitting into the job. Of course, I feel very fortunate that my boss wants to continue investing in me despite my less-than-stellar moments.
And maybe this is my vanity showing itself, but last week I got positive comments from several people when I gave my introductory speech at a speech club I joined at work. Usually I'm petrified of speaking in front of people, yet apparently I pulled this one off without looking nervous at all, plus I was funny. My boss was in attendance because she'd asked me to invite her when I got around to doing it. Basically she said it was great to see my personality shine through during the speech because I'm usually so quiet that she can't really read me. Gee, if I had known that giving this speech would boost my popularity so much, I would've done it sooner!
Makes me wonder if I come off as this totally awkward cold bitch at work. :-P I'm just quiet, and tend to be serious. Or anxious. And I don't get much opportunity display my sense of humor in daily work. I guess people don't drop by my office just to say "hi" very often because I don't seem welcoming. It sucks to be misunderstood -- no wonder I went through a Morrissey-immersion phase last week.
Ah well, at least I am chiseling away at the possibly unpleasant label I've been stuck with at work...may the word spread outside the speech club that I do indeed have a sense of humor and that I am not some kind of idiot savant who can write but has no personality or social skills whatsoever.