I really and truly forgot what I was going to write ( Read more... )

At first I was mad at Matt because he changed plans on me. His boss asked him if he could come in at 12 instead of 1. But then it was b/c he needs to grow a pair of balls! Just tell the bastard off! He isn't doing you any favours!  I woke up at 10:45a so he probably woke up at 11:00,and he ate then left...Time fly. So I spent the whole time he was ( Read more... )

That's it...I am going to kill Matt's boss! First of all I won't have him this weekend.  This weekend of all weekends. I had planned a wonderful family get together,since he barely gets to see Mum and Dad. But fuck it,it is ruined. He will be in North Carolina. I know he is doing only because we need the money...But not this weekend ( Read more... )

So I was in a daze today. But closer to leaving I came. The time sped up. I left  at 5:40,a little bit early. I was excited to see Matt. I came home,took off my shoes and etc. I saw the bathroom door was closed. (matt's car was in the driveway) Around 6:15 I finally knocked on the bathroom door,came to find out none was in there just a empty ( Read more... )

I don't hate you.  I noticed you cleaned the front room. Which was nice of you I liked that you took out the trash, more though. B/c I am about to start packing so all that junk is going in a box.   I told you what really bothers me,the dishes and they were piled high. Plus I came home not feeling good. We had to send three kids home yesterday. Two ( Read more... )

I have become so fucking attached. I called Matt on my break to see what he was doing and if he wanted to get some lunch with me. He was still asleep. Which doesn't bother me. It is just the one time I actually wanted to spend time with him during the day and I couldn't. Sometimes I kinda get mad that he gets to sleep in and I don't. I feel like ( Read more... )

I wanna beat the crap out of my dad.
I wanted to take out my frustration in another before I even got to the house. ANd he made it worse!

So Matt should get "the most patient boyfriend" award. Damn! No ciggys for three hours,I tossed a baby in his arms,and Suzy was beating him up! Oh and we got locked out of my grandma's house. But he climbed through the window for me. And he listened to me whine about the good ole days. And death and my grandparents. He is so awesomely sweet. :)

I am serious. Fuck. I am a housewife,without the wife part. This morning I lost my magical powers(I even get him to call it that,which is adorable!). And with losing my magical powers I get depressed easier. So I was depressed laying next to a hot,caring and sensitive guy. When I almost started crying...Just out of the fucking blue! So I lightly ( Read more... )

I am back to not knowing what I want. Why do I exist? For what purpose? Will I die a lonely person? Do I really want to be a teacher? Why am I going to school? (besides to learn more..)