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That's it...I am going to kill Matt's boss! First of all I won't have him this weekend.  This weekend of all weekends. I had planned a wonderful family get together,since he barely gets to see Mum and Dad. But fuck it,it is ruined. He will be in North Carolina. I know he is doing only because we need the money...But not this weekend ( Read more... )

Matt and I had a date tonight. I mean I know we are dating so techinally we don't have dates..But I requested it. we went to Ground Pati,niether of us had ever been there before. They serve your drinks in metal jugs and your plate are metal. Saves the waitress from breaking them i GUESS,BUT i THINK IT IS AWESOME!!!!!   and then we went to the ( Read more... )

I took a nap around 7,and was awaken by a wonderful voice! Matt. Around 8 is when he called. We stayed on the phone til 10. he finally had to get off to take a shower and get some sleep! Anyway,I had noticed I had missed a call. Weird b/c I didn't hear any beeping. I listened to my voicemail,it was Matt. Apparently it took Matt about 15 mins to get ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if it is a fantasy,me dating Matt that is. I mean I never dreamt of the "perfect" guy so I can't make the claim he is mine. But he is damn close. I am out of a job right now and he is paying the bills. 450 is the rent. I was just cooking and wonderin if Matt was going to come home....We didn't have an arguement or anything....It ( Read more... )

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So I went to NOLA with the Parkers and Nick,Matt came with me. I had some fun. I don't think Matt had as much fun as I did. The night we got there whihc was Mon, I had only been there for an hour when I was asked to flash. A girl asked me. She was drunk off her ass,and with her boyfriend. So I flashed....I don't know why I like to flash,I just do ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wanna just yell at Matt and ask him why are you with me? Leave me alone and stop being so nice. But that isn't a nice thing to do to someone who gave you 150! But that is why I want to tell him that,I am not nice. I still don't act on or say half the shit I think. Maybe I should get more agressive.

So Matt did something for me. Not only did he give me money,he helped me with a fanatsy of mine. Kissing in the water...ie rain,shower,and/or water fountain.

B/c I hate emotions so much,I slept on the floor last night. I punished myself. I got off the bed and slept on the floor. I was about to throw a hissy fit so to prevent that I left Matt's side. I severly hate my feelings. Matt told me I was cute,and I told him I am glad you think so. He said he doesn't think he knows.