It's 12:05am. I have a class tomorrow at 12pm. In it is due a 5-7 page paper about some topic from the class ( Read more... )

The title is partially related to the necessary and cathartic process of dumping all of my negativity in order to make way for calm and balance. The title is also partially related to new complications with my disordered eating ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since my last post. So much that details are kind of fuzzy.

A brief break-down:

I hit 141 pounds and was psyched.

I started seeing a psychologist-in-training through my school's Counseling Services. I made a wonderful connection with her and we started talking through some of my bigger issues. The nature of my school's counseling ( Read more... )

I am never really sure whether I could consider myself to have an eating disorder or not, but there are some times and some things that leave me no doubt that I've at the very least got a very fucked up way of seeing the world ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't want the world to see me. Sometimes there is nothing left for me. Sometimes I want nothing more than to be picture perfect, and all I can see are the things keeping me from that ( Read more... )