I can feel manic creativity bubbling inside of me. It's making me dissatisfied with mundane but very necessary tasks, like applying for jobs and cleaning up the apartment. Music is electrifying, photography is moving, writing is fascinating, painting is revitalizing -- I do not think I can adequately put down in words just how alive everything ( Read more... )

I feel a lot of things right now. A few of them: distressed, stressed, upset, frustrated, distractable, angry, tired, energetic, depressed, unfocused, disinterested, disappointed ( Read more... )

I've eaten about 450 calories today and I probably won't get more than 300 more unless I try. I could -- and I probably should, since I need to eat at least 1200 if not 1600 calories a day given my activity level -- but I don't want to. I am both not hungry AND looking forward to the results. The eating disordered part of me is rearing its ugly ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since my last post. So much that details are kind of fuzzy.

A brief break-down:

I hit 141 pounds and was psyched.

I started seeing a psychologist-in-training through my school's Counseling Services. I made a wonderful connection with her and we started talking through some of my bigger issues. The nature of my school's counseling ( Read more... )