So many things
I feel a lot of things right now. A few of them: distressed, stressed, upset, frustrated, distractable, angry, tired, energetic, depressed, unfocused, disinterested, disappointed.
A lot of them have to do with the stress of school and work. I have a lot of things piled up; it's not strange for me to be feeling that weight hanging over me.
I am, however, upset and frustrated with my psychiatrist. He seems unwilling to actually discuss anything with me. He just keeps upping my dosage, saying "call me if you have any questions" and then not responding to my calls. I am having some BIG focus problems on Lamictal, and I really need for this to be addressed. I specifically brought this up, emphasized it, during my appointment on Friday.
His response?
"Why don't we try upping your dose to 150mg, and 200mg next Friday, and you call me if it gets worse, okay?"
... so I call him today, because my inability to focus is wreaking HAVOC with my school work, and I leave a message (can't talk directly to them without an appointment). Guess who didn't call me back?
I am getting really, really upset. The stress from my work is compounded by my increased inability to focus on anything. Why won't he discuss the possibility of ADD with me? Why won't he follow through on his indication to prescribe Wellbutrin? WHY?
Feeling kind of lonely, too. I feel like I'm constantly ignored or patronized. This is probably part of my depression (I can feel it lurking underneath all the agitation and semi-mania), but it's still really disheartening. I felt completely despairing the other day (think "never" repeated until suicidal impulses start to build) and... blar.
An anti-depressant and ADD med would really help right now, eh?
A lot of them have to do with the stress of school and work. I have a lot of things piled up; it's not strange for me to be feeling that weight hanging over me.
I am, however, upset and frustrated with my psychiatrist. He seems unwilling to actually discuss anything with me. He just keeps upping my dosage, saying "call me if you have any questions" and then not responding to my calls. I am having some BIG focus problems on Lamictal, and I really need for this to be addressed. I specifically brought this up, emphasized it, during my appointment on Friday.
His response?
"Why don't we try upping your dose to 150mg, and 200mg next Friday, and you call me if it gets worse, okay?"
... so I call him today, because my inability to focus is wreaking HAVOC with my school work, and I leave a message (can't talk directly to them without an appointment). Guess who didn't call me back?
I am getting really, really upset. The stress from my work is compounded by my increased inability to focus on anything. Why won't he discuss the possibility of ADD with me? Why won't he follow through on his indication to prescribe Wellbutrin? WHY?
Feeling kind of lonely, too. I feel like I'm constantly ignored or patronized. This is probably part of my depression (I can feel it lurking underneath all the agitation and semi-mania), but it's still really disheartening. I felt completely despairing the other day (think "never" repeated until suicidal impulses start to build) and... blar.
An anti-depressant and ADD med would really help right now, eh?