I know I need sleep, a good, uninterrupted eight hours of it ( Read more... )

...both are beautiful when they're mine.  The music - I realized I haven't been making an effort to have music around me whenever I'm working or doing things around the house.  This is really easy to do since I've got music-reproducing equipment that can reach anywhere in the house or out on the porches.  Part of what I've been feeling lately is a ( Read more... )

  I know there are days where I dump a bit on my friends even when I put most of the depressing desperation behind the cut.  Thank you for reading, thank you for leaving me messages of hope, or just acknowldgement (whether it's here, in a text message or voicemail, or carrier pigeon ( Read more... )

...and the debris rains down and makes a damn mess.

Does it get easier?
All it's seemed to do is get
smaller
fainter
less vivid

Where does it hurt?
same place, just...less.
Surrounded by love
I feel more
of nothing.

Maybe you were meant
to break
me in
but I just feel left -
out
behind.

I hope
it gets better
because easier
isn't.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Before You

Before you
I ( Read more... )

Major personal realizations and revelations + dropping boyfriend because you should have done it a week ago + driving home in a blinding snowstorm on 1-90 that miraculously disappears as soon as you get off the turnpike @ 146 exit + five hours sleep for me = self-pitying drivel.

GAH!  I say again.

To recap - no boyfriends, at least not for a ( Read more... )

..and getting things done.

Thanks to friends who are wonderful - especially
( Read more... )

This is the title of one of my messages to a friend in response to his comment about only living life once and enjoying it.  My friend and I went back and forth about our short but confused romantic history (which really only amounted to one date).

After having apologized to him for not wanting to be friends with him after we decided (well ( Read more... )

Let's see.  24 hours ago I was freaking out about being late to my first date with a wonderful man.  A panicked phone call about to cancel (fears of bad first impressions and more) and a return call telling me that I should breathe (does that sound familiar anyone?  ;) and just relax and calm down.  He told me that he used to worry about everything ( Read more... )

    Finally getting to the good stuff - I started painting the living room last night.  I'm enjoying it a lot.  I found a great deal online for something called "the bridge" made by Harmon-Kardon for my amplifier that allows you to control your ipod from your stereo remote.  I've also learned that these type of "non aux" connections to the Ipod ( Read more... )

...they tell me that in a month, it will be the wet season when it rains for days at a time ( Read more... )