Confused.
I know I need sleep, a good, uninterrupted eight hours of it.
Realized today I haven't been keeping up on my energy path exercises, and I think it's starting to catch up with me. Will start back on this before bed (soon). I'm trying to get on a semi-regular, normal sleep schedule. Going to bed at 3am or whatever is not cutting it.
There's so much swirling around my head at the moment. Progress is better than stagnation, but there's still so much I have to learn about myself in this new state. I think one of the things I'm realizing is that I need to extend my improvements across the board. What I mean by that is I've been good at identifying areas where I overthink things and "borrow worry" for myself that ends up being nothing at all to worry about. The way I've been working on this is by identifying these kind of worrying traits as they're occurring and forcing myself to work it through logically and then I can see how crazy the worry is. There are a lot of things I worry about that I don't need to waste energy on.
Keeping perspective is also key. I have a poem somewhere I wrote about perspective, and how it makes all the difference. I need to remember that perspective can make the worries smaller, the happiness more satisfying.
Calm. Remembering to love myself before I can love others. Giving myself time to understand how I feel about things and people. I don't need to rush in, and it's better to have my eyes open so I can see what's happening.
I can do this. This whole life and love and happiness with myself kind of thing. I know it.
Realized today I haven't been keeping up on my energy path exercises, and I think it's starting to catch up with me. Will start back on this before bed (soon). I'm trying to get on a semi-regular, normal sleep schedule. Going to bed at 3am or whatever is not cutting it.
There's so much swirling around my head at the moment. Progress is better than stagnation, but there's still so much I have to learn about myself in this new state. I think one of the things I'm realizing is that I need to extend my improvements across the board. What I mean by that is I've been good at identifying areas where I overthink things and "borrow worry" for myself that ends up being nothing at all to worry about. The way I've been working on this is by identifying these kind of worrying traits as they're occurring and forcing myself to work it through logically and then I can see how crazy the worry is. There are a lot of things I worry about that I don't need to waste energy on.
Keeping perspective is also key. I have a poem somewhere I wrote about perspective, and how it makes all the difference. I need to remember that perspective can make the worries smaller, the happiness more satisfying.
Calm. Remembering to love myself before I can love others. Giving myself time to understand how I feel about things and people. I don't need to rush in, and it's better to have my eyes open so I can see what's happening.
I can do this. This whole life and love and happiness with myself kind of thing. I know it.