Today I got a beautiful sympathy card from my vet.  Not the animal hospital, but the actual vet ( Read more... )

    Today, I find myself sitting in the recliner, missing Shiva.  She almost always was in whatever room I was in, lying against the wall or curled up on the rug. Every time I look at the place in the living room where she'd lay down, it hits me and there's this twinge.  It sucks ( Read more... )

  I know there are days where I dump a bit on my friends even when I put most of the depressing desperation behind the cut.  Thank you for reading, thank you for leaving me messages of hope, or just acknowldgement (whether it's here, in a text message or voicemail, or carrier pigeon ( Read more... )

  The more I go along, the more I believe this.

One of the things I did about a month ago was register for a trial membership to Ancestry.com.  I'd intended to cancel it after the trial, but got sidetracked with the trip down to Florida to take care of my the last things involved with my father's belongings.

Today, i saw the payment for ( Read more... )

....because if I don't, I'm headed down a personally self-destructive path.  It's not something easily explained, nothing to do with drugs or alcohol or any other addictive substance.

There is a dearth of close friends in my life, much of my own doing.  I've been working on that over the last few months, and even longer - I am fortunate to ( Read more... )

    Talking to Marty on the phone today about my father - we were both crying a bit - it's been an intense experience for both of us.  The best part (if you can say that about the death of someone you always wanted to get to know well but never did) is that we're grieving together, and we each understand how it feels - and he's so happy that I see ( Read more... )

...the theme was ash and burning smell in the air, grief and visiting the dead, and celebration of life ( Read more... )

...they tell me that in a month, it will be the wet season when it rains for days at a time ( Read more... )