Bad dream: started with me and Ryan in a room with a couple that was having sex next to us. I’m about to start our life in our new house with the family unit. Ryan doesn’t help to tell the couple to stop while we are there, just bends over like a pussy. I walk away with this uncomfortable feeling but swallowing it and accepting that this is just ( Read more... )

My greatest fear is that I love someone more than they could love me.

This spans across all relationships. The deep fear is the one that I may once again neglect the good ones in pursuit of others who aren't looking my way.

Remember, to not chase.

I am so ready to start my 3rd wine semester ( Read more... )

I think I'm done being angry at my mom. And it's time to rebuild an adult relationship. There are things I'm beginning to accept that don't have to annoy me, if I don't let it ( Read more... )

Something in working out that has made me very happy is the slimming down of my legs ( Read more... )

Tonight is my first bike ride home where I didn't break a sweat. And last night, I wasn't as exhausted from the arm workouts unlike in the past. The samba class I did on Tuesday didn't make me as sweaty either. So it means my muscles are already used to what it's being put through. That's bad news because... now I have to intensify my regimen. ( Read more... )

I emailed my godmother a few days ago and she responded today. It made me happy and lingaw as we say in bisaya. It sentiments nostalgia. I'd never been close with my godmother in the past. One of those adult moments hit- where you start to yearn for a reconnection with someone from your past, be it family or old friends (that never pissed you off ( Read more... )

Mom is in the hospital for kidney stones and some urinary problems. Her bill is P39,000 (roughly $780) and she hasn't been discharged yet. Sigh. Still gotta pay for the meds too.

She wants to give me grief for waitressing, when right now it's waitressing that's helping her out. I would love to do something else more "substantial" with residual ( Read more... )

Met with Matt Harrison for the Jake Shimabukuro concert at the Highline Ballroom, Thursday 3/27/14.

After, we had a long kindred talk about how we were both in the same position concerning family hating on our significant others. He has more to lose and has it bad right now. I'm just getting started. He says it's not a popularity contest anymore- no ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving, to me, is this fake holiday where my mom tries to get everyone to eat dinner happily like a Leave It To Beaver episode. Mom would be in total denial that we have family issues to sort out. "Can't we be like a normal family for once and just eat peacefully?" And when they do get brought up at the table, because Ryan and I are more ( Read more... )