Minorette Legs
Something in working out that has made me very happy is the slimming down of my legs.
I remember in high school, around freshman year in the Philippines, I had a pair of (the ever popular of that decade!!) clear and sparkly high heel jellies. We bought them in the states and had just moved overseas. I wore them with shorts and my classmates would call me Legs 4 Days, etc. I started playing soccer after my sophomore year. My mom commented that they made my legs look butch. She expressed so much disappointment that I wasn't pursuing more feminine extracurriculars. I tried though! Other than the time my senior year when she said I would lose the beauty pageant because I was "too fat", in my junior year, I auditioned for the marching band as a minorette. The only 2 qualifications for that is a pretty face and nice legs. When I told my mom I was going to try out, she said I won't make it because of my legs. She was probably right, but saying it shook my confidence. I bombed the try out. I was so nervous. I tried to have a piece prepared and practiced with the baton but I just heard my mom's voice in my head. About halfway through the audition, I accepted my fate that I wouldn't get the part. And then I remember getting scolded again that I should'nt have been so nervous and or mentally given up so easily. I can't win! A lot of things in my life was/is affected by hearing my mom's voice.
t took a long time to shut it off but once in awhile I hear still hear it. If I had both parents, it might have been different, so I wouldn't have relied so much on my mom's opinion of me. It has totally taught me that a parent's influence is very, very delicate. If my child will have anything close to my emotional range, yeah I will have to learn tact and be as supportive as ever. Even though my mom thought she was doing me a favor by not sugar coating life and telling me all kinds of reasons for why I will be disappointed in life, I'm mad that she never just gave me a chance or to feel a little hope that I might be good at something I wanted to do.
Anyway, so I noticed that my legs seemed to have slimmed down especially at the calve muscle. It feels like being 15 all over again with feminine legs.