Experiments and Crushes 7/12
Title: Experiments and Crushes
Author: chocolet89
Pairing: Yunho/Junsu
Rating: NC-17
Chapters: 7/12
Genre: Fluff, Humor, Smut
Summary: Junsu walks in on Yunho coming out of the shower one day and his feelings towards the leader are never the same again. As he slowly comes to terms with his newfound sexuality, Junsu also learns ways of pleasuring himself he never thought was possible before
A/N: This chapter starts right where the previous one left off ^^
Chapter 7 - Confessions and Misunderstandings
After sending a quick message to his brother about not being able to make it for the family gathering on the weekend, Junsu quickly tucked the phone back into Yunho’s bag. He almost forgot about it until after the performance was over and they were in the van on their way back home.
Junsu was staring out the window as usual while beside him Yunho was looking at his phone with a confused expression on his face.
“Umm Junsu?” Yunho had whispered quietly nudging the younger man beside him.
“Hmm?”
“Why did Junho send me this text?”
Junsu frowned in confusion as he took the phone out of the leader’s hand to read the message.
Hey Su ~ that’s fine! Oh and have you tried out the latest toy I sent you yet? I’ve heard it gives great pleasure to the recipient ;) ♥
Junsu’s mouth fell open at the message while Yunho just looked on in confusion.
He felt like digging a hole and burying himself inside it for the rest of his life.
“Umm Su?”
Junsu met the gaze of the man beside him and immediately regretted it.
Concern and something he couldn’t exactly decipher flashed through those honey orbs and Junsu quickly turned his head away to stare out the window.
“Is there … something going on between you and Junho that you’re hiding from us?” he whispered carefully.
Junsu gasped in surprise.
“W-What?” he spluttered.
Looking around at the other members, Yunho shushed him before saying, “We’ll talk about this later tonight.”
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Junsu fidgeted nervously under the leader’s firm gaze.
They were in his room now, Junsu sitting with his back against the headboard and Yunho sitting cross-legged in front of him.
“Junsu-ah,” the leader finally said breaking the silence.
“N-Nehh hyung …”
“You know you can talk to me about anything right? You’re like a family to me and I don’t want you to think you can’t talk to me about anything.”
Junsu nodded is head as he bit his lip in worry. When Yunho pulled out the whole ‘team = family’ card it normally meant Junsu would end up telling him everything.
“I don’t really know how to start things so I’ll just get straight to the point okay?”
Junsu nodded his head and he heard Yunho take a deep breath before he asked the question.
“Are you in a sexual relationship with your brother?”
Junsu stared at the leader for two seconds before the words finally sunk in.
“WHAT??” he practically screamed out causing the latter to flinch.
Yunho gave a small apologetic smile holding his hands out in apology.
“I … I guess not then eh?”
Junsu spluttered.
“No hyung o-of course not! I mean no way … me a-and … Junho oh my god no way! Why would you even think that?”
Yunho had the decency to blush and ducked his head in embarrassment.
“I’m sorry Su, I should have thought things out properly before asking you. That umm … that was a bit silly of me to say, I shouldn’t have come to conclusions so quickly.”
Junsu automatically calmed down at Yunho’s apology and reached out to take one of the leader’s hands into his own to squeeze tightly.
“It’s okay hyung. I was just a bit surprised myself was all. I mean that’s a very … disturbing question to ask.”
“S-Sorry Su, it’s just when I read the text I couldn’t help but think there something was going on between the two of you.”
Junsu cleared his throat as he remembered all too clearly what Junho had texted him.
I am so going to kill him the next time I see him.
“Well there’s nothing going on between us so you don’t have to worry hyung.”
“Oh okay …”
Junsu watched knowing that that wasn’t all Yunho wanted to say.
“Was there some else you wanted to ask hyung?” he asked gently.
Yunho drew his lower lip between his teeth and Junsu refrained himself from leaping across the bed to draw it between his own teeth.
“Well … I don’t want you to feel offended because I-”
“Hyung you just asked me if I was in a sexual relationship with my own brother. Surely nothing could be worse?” Junsu said with a grin trying to lighten the mood.
“Umm well this isn’t really a question that’s asked everyday either Su …”
Junsu just stayed quiet, urging the leader to ask the question.
“Are you gay?”
Junsu’s mouth fell open in shock.
Seeing the latter’s reaction Yunho quickly tried to amend things, stumbling over his words.
“Umm I’m sorry, I-I shouldn’t have assumed you were … please don’t get offended!”
Junsu coughed trying to calm down his nerves. He could deny it outright on the spot and then Yunho would never know. But on the other hand, there was no reason to hide it; and besides it wouldn’t really hurt for the man of his wet dreams to know, right?
“I-Its okay hyung, I’m not offended. Umm the thing is … I … I’m … I am gay but … how to explain? I’m sort of experimenting at the moment? To see if I really am gay or if it’s just some curiosity thing.”
“E-Experiment?” Yunho whispered and Junsu immediately regretted his words.
“You mean you … do things with other men?” Yunho asked incredulously.
“Ah no no!!” Junsu quickly said defending himself. He didn’t want Yunho to think he was a whore or something.
“I meant as in just … experimenting … by myself,” Junsu said whispering the last part.
Silence hung between them as the leader processed the younger member’s words.
“Ohhh … so … when Junho sent that text … did he mean …” Yunho sort of trailed off but Junsu knew what he was getting at.
“Umm yea about that … I confided in Junho about this whole sexuality thing and he … he’s been helping me out by buying certain things for me …”
Junsu didn’t know if this was more embarrassing or if waking up to Yunho was more embarrassing.
Yunho opened his mouth but then a sudden screech followed by “JUNG YUNHO GET BAMBI OFF THE COUCH RIGHT NOW!” had him shutting his mouth and standing up in an instant.
“Crap I forgot I left Bambi outside yesterday afternoon,” Yunho said as he made his way to the door. Jaejoong always wanted to keep the couch clear of objects and Yunho knew better than to leave Bambi to Jaejoong’s wrath any longer than necessary.
As he opened the door, Yunho turned back to Junsu, a shy but understanding smile donning his face.
“I’m sorry I asked you such embarrassing questions Su-ah. But I just want you to know that I’ll always be here for you.”
“Thanks hyung and its fine really,” Junsu assured with a smile of his own.
“And let me know if you ever need help with coming to terms with it all. I’ll be happy to lend a hand.”
Junsu’s mouth fell open but before he could question the leader’s words, Yunho had already left the room off to rescue his plushie.
Need help? Lend a hand? What does he mean by that? Help as in someone to talk to about my sexuality? And lending a hand as in to ‘help’ me experiment?
Shaking his head, Junsu decided to deal with the next problem in his mind. Grabbing his phone he scrolled through his contacts for the familiar name before pressing dial.
“Hello?”
“HYUNG! WHAT THE HECK? WHAT WAS WITH THAT MESSAGE YOU SENT TO YUNHO BEFORE?”
Junsu breathed heavily out of his nose as he tried to calm himself down. He could hear Junho chuckling on the other end and refrained himself from screaming out loud.
“What message? I didn’t send a message to Yunho … I did send a message to you though.”
Junsu felt like curling up into a ball and sobbing.
“Hyuungg you know what message I’m talking about. The one you sent to his phone just over an hour ago knowing very well that he would read it. Why did you have to embarrass me like that?”
“Oohhhhh you mean that message … I was just replying to your text and asked if you’d tried out the latest toy yet, nothing wrong with that.”
Yea and you just had to go and say something about it giving great pleasure, and not only that you went and put a winking emoticon and a heart at the end of the message Junsu thought to himself with a sigh.
“Hyung,” Junsu said between gritted teeth. “He knows.”
“Knows what? I didn’t say ‘hey Junsu have you tried that vibrator out yet that I sent you last week?’ I just asked if you’d tried out the toy yet which technically could have meant anything.”
“Hyung do you know what he asked me as soon as he saw the text message?” Junsu said in frustration.
“Err … what?”
“He asked if there was something going on between you and me! You and me hyung! He asked if we were in a sexual relationship!
“Oh … and … so what did you tell him?”
“Of course I told him there was nothing going on between us!!”
Junsu sighed as he wondered how Junho could be so calm after having just been told that he’d been accused of being in a sexual relationship with his own brother.
“So that’s no big deal to get worked up over Su-ah.”
Junsu sighed again.
“He then asked me if I was gay hyung.”
“Oohhhhh really now?”
Junsu groaned as Junho started laughing through the phone. It took his brother a few minutes to calm down before he was able to talk again.
“So what did you tell him? Did you deny it?”
At that Junsu fell silent and Junho gasped through the phone.
“Oh my god you told him! Did you confess to him then??”
“What oh my god no I didn’t confess to him! I don’t even know if I like him for real yet! And yes I did tell him I was gay - or at least I’m still in the stages of experimenting and wasn’t 100% sure yet.”
“Oh wow bro, I can’t believe you told him you were gay. So he’s okay with it?”
“Yea he’s fine with it.”
“And what do you mean you don’t even know if you like him for real yet? I thought he was the reason you turned gay in the first place.”
“Well … I … I’m still not sure if I really like like him or if it’s just a phase that I’ll get over eventually. I don’t really know how to explain it.”
“So basically you’re still unsure if it’s just lust for his body that you’re feeling or if you really do have feelings for him right?”
“Yeah something along those lines.”
Silence fell between the twins for a few seconds and Junsu wondered what his brother would say next.
“So Junsu …”
Junsu immediately groaned at the tone.
“Yes hyung?”
“Why did you text me using Yunho’s phone?”
“Umm because I left my phone at home and I had no phone to use.”
“Are you sure that’s the only reason Su?”
Junsu groaned having instantly regretted using Yunho’s phone to text his brother.
“Of course that’s the only reason, what other reason would I use his phone for?”
“Well … maybe on the outside it looked like you were using his phone to text me, but really you were going to upload a naked photo of yourself on his wallpaper and surprise him.”
Junsu’s mouth fell open in shock.
“Who are you and what have you done to my brother?”
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After that night, two things started bothering Junsu.
The first was he noticed that Yunho seemed to pay a bit more attention to him than before but for what reason he wasn’t exactly sure. He reasoned that Yunho was either worried for him or just curious after Junsu had come out to him. Though what he could gauge from Yunho staring at him, Junsu really had no idea.
The second was his feelings towards the older man.
Junsu still wasn’t really sure what his feelings towards the older member were. Some days he would think it was just lust for the other’s body and that he’d probably end up getting over it after another few weeks or so.
But then he’d think back to when he woke up with Yunho beside him in bed and he’d remember that fuzzy feeling he’d felt at the time.
When the members were all once again given a day off from their busy schedules, Junsu decided to finally confide with Yoochun about his problems out of his better judgement.
“Yoochun-ah,” he said as he stood nervously at the entryway of Yoochun’s bedroom.
Yoochun quirked an eyebrow at him but gestured for the younger member to join him on the bed where he was reading the latest instalment of Naruto.
Junsu smiled gratefully and walked into the room taking a seat beside the older man.
“I … I need your help with something,” he said slowly.
Yoochun caught onto the seriousness of his tone and slipped the bookmark between the pages before setting the book aside and turning his full attention to the younger man.
“What is it Su?”
Junsu sighed. Maybe he should have just confided with Junho again. It seemed a lot easier spilling everything out to him rather than to the other members of DBSK.
“How do you know if you like someone and that it’s not just a fluke?”
Junsu watched as the corners of Yoochun’s lips twitched and then grabbed the pillow beside him to slam into the older man’s face when he burst out laughing.
“I’m being serious here! Don’t laugh at me,” Junsu said in annoyance.
Yoochun muffled his laughter into the pillow and waited until he’d calmed himself down before removing the pillow away from his face.
He saw the hurt look on Junsu’s face and quickly shuffled closer, gripping the younger’s hands in his.
“I’m sorry Su but I really wasn’t expecting such a serious question from you.”
“Well I am being serious here so are you going to continue laughing at me or are you going to give me some advice on it?”
Yoochun pouted at the tone being directed at him and tried to lighten the mood by pushing Junsu to rest against the headboard and then dumping the pillow onto the younger man’s lap before lying his head on it.
“So you want to know if your feelings for this person are real or not?”
Junsu nodded his head as he relaxed against the headboard, fingers automatically carding through Yoochun’s hair.
“Hmm well why don’t you tell me what you feel for this person right now? I’m assuming you’re asking me this because you have feelings for someone right?”
Junsu again nodded his head and contemplated for a few minutes on how he should explain things to Yoochun.
“At the beginning, I thought it was just out of curiosity and something I’d get over eventually. Rather than calling it a crush, it was more like I was sexually attracted to this person.”
“But now?” Yoochun probed.
“Now I don’t know. I think of the times we spend together by ourselves where nothing is sexually related and I kind of enjoy those moments that we spend together. It feels … fluffy.”
Yoochun giggled at Junsu’s choice of words but otherwise made no further movements to make fun of his best friend.
“Well when you really like someone, you don’t just think of them sexually,” Yoochun explained simply.
Junsu looked down at Yoochun and urged him to continue.
“When you like someone, you notice everything they do, like the way they eat, the way they dress, the way they talk, just everything I guess,” Yoochun said.
Junsu contemplated Yoochun’s words and his mind wandered back to when he and Yunho were eating ramen that night by themselves after practice and how he’d thought the way the leader ate was cute. He smiled at the memory and then blushed when he noticed Yoochun looking up at him from his lap.
“Yeaaa I’d say you really like this person,” Yoochun commented with a lopsided grin.
Junsu’s mouth fell open but before he could say something, Yoochun was talking again.
“I’m going to be honest here and I expect you to answer this question truthfully. The person that you like … is it a guy?”
Junsu’s mouth opened, then closed and then opened again, fingers stilling in Yoochun’s hair.
Yoochun continued to stare at him from his lap and eventually Junsu nodded his head. There was no point in lying to the other man anyway, he’d find out eventually.
“I just wanted to confirm,” Yoochun explained. “You never once mentioned it was a ‘she’ and then you were talking about being curious and sexually attracted to this other person.”
Junsu blushed not really knowing what to say to that.
Yoochun smiled then and sat up dislodging Junsu’s fingers from his hair.
“It’s alright you know it makes sense now as to why you’re more confused and unsure of if you really like this person or if you’re just sexually attracted to him.”
Junsu nodded his head in agreement and didn’t realize what Yoochun was doing until the latter was sitting in his lap knees on either side of his hips.
“So,” Yoochun breathed out as he rested his palms on the headboard on either side of Junsu’s head.
Junsu gasped body freezing in shock.
“Does this mean you’re gay? Or are you only attracted to this one guy in particular?” Yoochun asked as he slowly closed the distance between them.
Junsu’s mind was a swirl of confusion as he felt Yoochun’s breath against his neck. Was Yoochun hitting on him? But they were best friends right?
He tried to open his mouth to tell Yoochun to back off but then soft lips pressed against the spot just under his ear and Junsu couldn’t stop the small moan from escaping past his lips.
He felt the older man smirk against his skin before teeth wrapped around his flesh and bit hard. Junsu’s hands finally found their strength and he threaded his fingers through Yoochun’s hair and tugged, hard. His intention was to pull Yoochun away but Yoochun only doubled his efforts and sucked harder on the now-abused flesh.
“Yoochun what are you do-”
His protest was cut off when a thud sounded from the door to the room.
Junsu whipped his head around only to widen his eyes in horror (and also slap his head mentally at having forgotten to close the door when he’d first entered the room).
Yunho stood in the middle of the doorway a pile of books scattered on the floor around him.
When their eyes met, Yunho’s body jerked and he quickly cleared his throat.
“I umm … just wanted to return these books to Yoochun,” he mumbled explaining his appearance.
“S-Sorry for interrupting,” he said before bending over to quickly retrieve the scattered books. He walked into the room placing them on the table before quickly rushing back out. He stopped at the doorway for a second and gave them another quick glance before dashing off.
By now Yoochun had detached himself from Junsu’s neck and was watching the whole thing between Yunho and Junsu in amusement.
When Yunho’s footsteps had faded away followed by a loud bang of a door being slammed shut, Yoochun finally met the deadly gaze of one Kim Junsu.
“Umm … oops?” he said guiltily before Junsu whacked him over the head with a pillow.
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Chapter 12: Naked, Wet and No Longer in Denial
Chapter 11: Realizations and Discoveries
Chapter 10: Handjobs and More Kisses
Chapter 9: Reassuring Kisses
Chapter 8: One Step Closer
Chapter 7: Confessions and Misunderstandings
Chapter 6: Curiosity
Chapter 5: Awkward Moments
Chapter 4: More Toys
Chapter 3: More Experiments
Chapter 2: Research and Experiments
Chapter 1: Naked, Wet and in Denial
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A/N: No smut this chapter sorry ^^” and I wasn’t sure if I should have put a ‘minor!YooSu’ warning at the beginning too but it wasn’t a huge YooSu moment and also it would’ve given away the ending XD
I apologize for the late update (I seem to be saying that a lot) as I also had troubles in deciding what to write for this chapter OTL will try to update sooner next time :D
Thanks for everyone's support and hope you all enjoyed reading this chapter ^^ ♥
Author: chocolet89
Pairing: Yunho/Junsu
Rating: NC-17
Chapters: 7/12
Genre: Fluff, Humor, Smut
Summary: Junsu walks in on Yunho coming out of the shower one day and his feelings towards the leader are never the same again. As he slowly comes to terms with his newfound sexuality, Junsu also learns ways of pleasuring himself he never thought was possible before
A/N: This chapter starts right where the previous one left off ^^
Chapter 7 - Confessions and Misunderstandings
After sending a quick message to his brother about not being able to make it for the family gathering on the weekend, Junsu quickly tucked the phone back into Yunho’s bag. He almost forgot about it until after the performance was over and they were in the van on their way back home.
Junsu was staring out the window as usual while beside him Yunho was looking at his phone with a confused expression on his face.
“Umm Junsu?” Yunho had whispered quietly nudging the younger man beside him.
“Hmm?”
“Why did Junho send me this text?”
Junsu frowned in confusion as he took the phone out of the leader’s hand to read the message.
Hey Su ~ that’s fine! Oh and have you tried out the latest toy I sent you yet? I’ve heard it gives great pleasure to the recipient ;) ♥
Junsu’s mouth fell open at the message while Yunho just looked on in confusion.
He felt like digging a hole and burying himself inside it for the rest of his life.
“Umm Su?”
Junsu met the gaze of the man beside him and immediately regretted it.
Concern and something he couldn’t exactly decipher flashed through those honey orbs and Junsu quickly turned his head away to stare out the window.
“Is there … something going on between you and Junho that you’re hiding from us?” he whispered carefully.
Junsu gasped in surprise.
“W-What?” he spluttered.
Looking around at the other members, Yunho shushed him before saying, “We’ll talk about this later tonight.”
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Junsu fidgeted nervously under the leader’s firm gaze.
They were in his room now, Junsu sitting with his back against the headboard and Yunho sitting cross-legged in front of him.
“Junsu-ah,” the leader finally said breaking the silence.
“N-Nehh hyung …”
“You know you can talk to me about anything right? You’re like a family to me and I don’t want you to think you can’t talk to me about anything.”
Junsu nodded is head as he bit his lip in worry. When Yunho pulled out the whole ‘team = family’ card it normally meant Junsu would end up telling him everything.
“I don’t really know how to start things so I’ll just get straight to the point okay?”
Junsu nodded his head and he heard Yunho take a deep breath before he asked the question.
“Are you in a sexual relationship with your brother?”
Junsu stared at the leader for two seconds before the words finally sunk in.
“WHAT??” he practically screamed out causing the latter to flinch.
Yunho gave a small apologetic smile holding his hands out in apology.
“I … I guess not then eh?”
Junsu spluttered.
“No hyung o-of course not! I mean no way … me a-and … Junho oh my god no way! Why would you even think that?”
Yunho had the decency to blush and ducked his head in embarrassment.
“I’m sorry Su, I should have thought things out properly before asking you. That umm … that was a bit silly of me to say, I shouldn’t have come to conclusions so quickly.”
Junsu automatically calmed down at Yunho’s apology and reached out to take one of the leader’s hands into his own to squeeze tightly.
“It’s okay hyung. I was just a bit surprised myself was all. I mean that’s a very … disturbing question to ask.”
“S-Sorry Su, it’s just when I read the text I couldn’t help but think there something was going on between the two of you.”
Junsu cleared his throat as he remembered all too clearly what Junho had texted him.
I am so going to kill him the next time I see him.
“Well there’s nothing going on between us so you don’t have to worry hyung.”
“Oh okay …”
Junsu watched knowing that that wasn’t all Yunho wanted to say.
“Was there some else you wanted to ask hyung?” he asked gently.
Yunho drew his lower lip between his teeth and Junsu refrained himself from leaping across the bed to draw it between his own teeth.
“Well … I don’t want you to feel offended because I-”
“Hyung you just asked me if I was in a sexual relationship with my own brother. Surely nothing could be worse?” Junsu said with a grin trying to lighten the mood.
“Umm well this isn’t really a question that’s asked everyday either Su …”
Junsu just stayed quiet, urging the leader to ask the question.
“Are you gay?”
Junsu’s mouth fell open in shock.
Seeing the latter’s reaction Yunho quickly tried to amend things, stumbling over his words.
“Umm I’m sorry, I-I shouldn’t have assumed you were … please don’t get offended!”
Junsu coughed trying to calm down his nerves. He could deny it outright on the spot and then Yunho would never know. But on the other hand, there was no reason to hide it; and besides it wouldn’t really hurt for the man of his wet dreams to know, right?
“I-Its okay hyung, I’m not offended. Umm the thing is … I … I’m … I am gay but … how to explain? I’m sort of experimenting at the moment? To see if I really am gay or if it’s just some curiosity thing.”
“E-Experiment?” Yunho whispered and Junsu immediately regretted his words.
“You mean you … do things with other men?” Yunho asked incredulously.
“Ah no no!!” Junsu quickly said defending himself. He didn’t want Yunho to think he was a whore or something.
“I meant as in just … experimenting … by myself,” Junsu said whispering the last part.
Silence hung between them as the leader processed the younger member’s words.
“Ohhh … so … when Junho sent that text … did he mean …” Yunho sort of trailed off but Junsu knew what he was getting at.
“Umm yea about that … I confided in Junho about this whole sexuality thing and he … he’s been helping me out by buying certain things for me …”
Junsu didn’t know if this was more embarrassing or if waking up to Yunho was more embarrassing.
Yunho opened his mouth but then a sudden screech followed by “JUNG YUNHO GET BAMBI OFF THE COUCH RIGHT NOW!” had him shutting his mouth and standing up in an instant.
“Crap I forgot I left Bambi outside yesterday afternoon,” Yunho said as he made his way to the door. Jaejoong always wanted to keep the couch clear of objects and Yunho knew better than to leave Bambi to Jaejoong’s wrath any longer than necessary.
As he opened the door, Yunho turned back to Junsu, a shy but understanding smile donning his face.
“I’m sorry I asked you such embarrassing questions Su-ah. But I just want you to know that I’ll always be here for you.”
“Thanks hyung and its fine really,” Junsu assured with a smile of his own.
“And let me know if you ever need help with coming to terms with it all. I’ll be happy to lend a hand.”
Junsu’s mouth fell open but before he could question the leader’s words, Yunho had already left the room off to rescue his plushie.
Need help? Lend a hand? What does he mean by that? Help as in someone to talk to about my sexuality? And lending a hand as in to ‘help’ me experiment?
Shaking his head, Junsu decided to deal with the next problem in his mind. Grabbing his phone he scrolled through his contacts for the familiar name before pressing dial.
“Hello?”
“HYUNG! WHAT THE HECK? WHAT WAS WITH THAT MESSAGE YOU SENT TO YUNHO BEFORE?”
Junsu breathed heavily out of his nose as he tried to calm himself down. He could hear Junho chuckling on the other end and refrained himself from screaming out loud.
“What message? I didn’t send a message to Yunho … I did send a message to you though.”
Junsu felt like curling up into a ball and sobbing.
“Hyuungg you know what message I’m talking about. The one you sent to his phone just over an hour ago knowing very well that he would read it. Why did you have to embarrass me like that?”
“Oohhhhh you mean that message … I was just replying to your text and asked if you’d tried out the latest toy yet, nothing wrong with that.”
Yea and you just had to go and say something about it giving great pleasure, and not only that you went and put a winking emoticon and a heart at the end of the message Junsu thought to himself with a sigh.
“Hyung,” Junsu said between gritted teeth. “He knows.”
“Knows what? I didn’t say ‘hey Junsu have you tried that vibrator out yet that I sent you last week?’ I just asked if you’d tried out the toy yet which technically could have meant anything.”
“Hyung do you know what he asked me as soon as he saw the text message?” Junsu said in frustration.
“Err … what?”
“He asked if there was something going on between you and me! You and me hyung! He asked if we were in a sexual relationship!
“Oh … and … so what did you tell him?”
“Of course I told him there was nothing going on between us!!”
Junsu sighed as he wondered how Junho could be so calm after having just been told that he’d been accused of being in a sexual relationship with his own brother.
“So that’s no big deal to get worked up over Su-ah.”
Junsu sighed again.
“He then asked me if I was gay hyung.”
“Oohhhhh really now?”
Junsu groaned as Junho started laughing through the phone. It took his brother a few minutes to calm down before he was able to talk again.
“So what did you tell him? Did you deny it?”
At that Junsu fell silent and Junho gasped through the phone.
“Oh my god you told him! Did you confess to him then??”
“What oh my god no I didn’t confess to him! I don’t even know if I like him for real yet! And yes I did tell him I was gay - or at least I’m still in the stages of experimenting and wasn’t 100% sure yet.”
“Oh wow bro, I can’t believe you told him you were gay. So he’s okay with it?”
“Yea he’s fine with it.”
“And what do you mean you don’t even know if you like him for real yet? I thought he was the reason you turned gay in the first place.”
“Well … I … I’m still not sure if I really like like him or if it’s just a phase that I’ll get over eventually. I don’t really know how to explain it.”
“So basically you’re still unsure if it’s just lust for his body that you’re feeling or if you really do have feelings for him right?”
“Yeah something along those lines.”
Silence fell between the twins for a few seconds and Junsu wondered what his brother would say next.
“So Junsu …”
Junsu immediately groaned at the tone.
“Yes hyung?”
“Why did you text me using Yunho’s phone?”
“Umm because I left my phone at home and I had no phone to use.”
“Are you sure that’s the only reason Su?”
Junsu groaned having instantly regretted using Yunho’s phone to text his brother.
“Of course that’s the only reason, what other reason would I use his phone for?”
“Well … maybe on the outside it looked like you were using his phone to text me, but really you were going to upload a naked photo of yourself on his wallpaper and surprise him.”
Junsu’s mouth fell open in shock.
“Who are you and what have you done to my brother?”
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After that night, two things started bothering Junsu.
The first was he noticed that Yunho seemed to pay a bit more attention to him than before but for what reason he wasn’t exactly sure. He reasoned that Yunho was either worried for him or just curious after Junsu had come out to him. Though what he could gauge from Yunho staring at him, Junsu really had no idea.
The second was his feelings towards the older man.
Junsu still wasn’t really sure what his feelings towards the older member were. Some days he would think it was just lust for the other’s body and that he’d probably end up getting over it after another few weeks or so.
But then he’d think back to when he woke up with Yunho beside him in bed and he’d remember that fuzzy feeling he’d felt at the time.
When the members were all once again given a day off from their busy schedules, Junsu decided to finally confide with Yoochun about his problems out of his better judgement.
“Yoochun-ah,” he said as he stood nervously at the entryway of Yoochun’s bedroom.
Yoochun quirked an eyebrow at him but gestured for the younger member to join him on the bed where he was reading the latest instalment of Naruto.
Junsu smiled gratefully and walked into the room taking a seat beside the older man.
“I … I need your help with something,” he said slowly.
Yoochun caught onto the seriousness of his tone and slipped the bookmark between the pages before setting the book aside and turning his full attention to the younger man.
“What is it Su?”
Junsu sighed. Maybe he should have just confided with Junho again. It seemed a lot easier spilling everything out to him rather than to the other members of DBSK.
“How do you know if you like someone and that it’s not just a fluke?”
Junsu watched as the corners of Yoochun’s lips twitched and then grabbed the pillow beside him to slam into the older man’s face when he burst out laughing.
“I’m being serious here! Don’t laugh at me,” Junsu said in annoyance.
Yoochun muffled his laughter into the pillow and waited until he’d calmed himself down before removing the pillow away from his face.
He saw the hurt look on Junsu’s face and quickly shuffled closer, gripping the younger’s hands in his.
“I’m sorry Su but I really wasn’t expecting such a serious question from you.”
“Well I am being serious here so are you going to continue laughing at me or are you going to give me some advice on it?”
Yoochun pouted at the tone being directed at him and tried to lighten the mood by pushing Junsu to rest against the headboard and then dumping the pillow onto the younger man’s lap before lying his head on it.
“So you want to know if your feelings for this person are real or not?”
Junsu nodded his head as he relaxed against the headboard, fingers automatically carding through Yoochun’s hair.
“Hmm well why don’t you tell me what you feel for this person right now? I’m assuming you’re asking me this because you have feelings for someone right?”
Junsu again nodded his head and contemplated for a few minutes on how he should explain things to Yoochun.
“At the beginning, I thought it was just out of curiosity and something I’d get over eventually. Rather than calling it a crush, it was more like I was sexually attracted to this person.”
“But now?” Yoochun probed.
“Now I don’t know. I think of the times we spend together by ourselves where nothing is sexually related and I kind of enjoy those moments that we spend together. It feels … fluffy.”
Yoochun giggled at Junsu’s choice of words but otherwise made no further movements to make fun of his best friend.
“Well when you really like someone, you don’t just think of them sexually,” Yoochun explained simply.
Junsu looked down at Yoochun and urged him to continue.
“When you like someone, you notice everything they do, like the way they eat, the way they dress, the way they talk, just everything I guess,” Yoochun said.
Junsu contemplated Yoochun’s words and his mind wandered back to when he and Yunho were eating ramen that night by themselves after practice and how he’d thought the way the leader ate was cute. He smiled at the memory and then blushed when he noticed Yoochun looking up at him from his lap.
“Yeaaa I’d say you really like this person,” Yoochun commented with a lopsided grin.
Junsu’s mouth fell open but before he could say something, Yoochun was talking again.
“I’m going to be honest here and I expect you to answer this question truthfully. The person that you like … is it a guy?”
Junsu’s mouth opened, then closed and then opened again, fingers stilling in Yoochun’s hair.
Yoochun continued to stare at him from his lap and eventually Junsu nodded his head. There was no point in lying to the other man anyway, he’d find out eventually.
“I just wanted to confirm,” Yoochun explained. “You never once mentioned it was a ‘she’ and then you were talking about being curious and sexually attracted to this other person.”
Junsu blushed not really knowing what to say to that.
Yoochun smiled then and sat up dislodging Junsu’s fingers from his hair.
“It’s alright you know it makes sense now as to why you’re more confused and unsure of if you really like this person or if you’re just sexually attracted to him.”
Junsu nodded his head in agreement and didn’t realize what Yoochun was doing until the latter was sitting in his lap knees on either side of his hips.
“So,” Yoochun breathed out as he rested his palms on the headboard on either side of Junsu’s head.
Junsu gasped body freezing in shock.
“Does this mean you’re gay? Or are you only attracted to this one guy in particular?” Yoochun asked as he slowly closed the distance between them.
Junsu’s mind was a swirl of confusion as he felt Yoochun’s breath against his neck. Was Yoochun hitting on him? But they were best friends right?
He tried to open his mouth to tell Yoochun to back off but then soft lips pressed against the spot just under his ear and Junsu couldn’t stop the small moan from escaping past his lips.
He felt the older man smirk against his skin before teeth wrapped around his flesh and bit hard. Junsu’s hands finally found their strength and he threaded his fingers through Yoochun’s hair and tugged, hard. His intention was to pull Yoochun away but Yoochun only doubled his efforts and sucked harder on the now-abused flesh.
“Yoochun what are you do-”
His protest was cut off when a thud sounded from the door to the room.
Junsu whipped his head around only to widen his eyes in horror (and also slap his head mentally at having forgotten to close the door when he’d first entered the room).
Yunho stood in the middle of the doorway a pile of books scattered on the floor around him.
When their eyes met, Yunho’s body jerked and he quickly cleared his throat.
“I umm … just wanted to return these books to Yoochun,” he mumbled explaining his appearance.
“S-Sorry for interrupting,” he said before bending over to quickly retrieve the scattered books. He walked into the room placing them on the table before quickly rushing back out. He stopped at the doorway for a second and gave them another quick glance before dashing off.
By now Yoochun had detached himself from Junsu’s neck and was watching the whole thing between Yunho and Junsu in amusement.
When Yunho’s footsteps had faded away followed by a loud bang of a door being slammed shut, Yoochun finally met the deadly gaze of one Kim Junsu.
“Umm … oops?” he said guiltily before Junsu whacked him over the head with a pillow.
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Chapter 12: Naked, Wet and No Longer in Denial
Chapter 11: Realizations and Discoveries
Chapter 10: Handjobs and More Kisses
Chapter 9: Reassuring Kisses
Chapter 8: One Step Closer
Chapter 7: Confessions and Misunderstandings
Chapter 6: Curiosity
Chapter 5: Awkward Moments
Chapter 4: More Toys
Chapter 3: More Experiments
Chapter 2: Research and Experiments
Chapter 1: Naked, Wet and in Denial
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A/N: No smut this chapter sorry ^^” and I wasn’t sure if I should have put a ‘minor!YooSu’ warning at the beginning too but it wasn’t a huge YooSu moment and also it would’ve given away the ending XD
I apologize for the late update (I seem to be saying that a lot) as I also had troubles in deciding what to write for this chapter OTL will try to update sooner next time :D
Thanks for everyone's support and hope you all enjoyed reading this chapter ^^ ♥