yI've got my GED now, Im enrolled for my core classes starting in 8 days. My vision will finally be fixed in 4 days. And I can finally go back to work in a week when my car has new tags and I get my new Ohio lisence.

But it still isn't enough. My mom was just here for a visit. We were able to get professional photos done for the occasion. Other ( Read more... )

Dear Sasha,

Lately I have been over tired, Im sleeping later and deeper then usual. Im sure it's my depression kicking in again. I upped my meds but it's not helping much at all. I don't feel like crying. But I know I'm depressed about this move still. I'm trying to make the best of it. I don't know. It seems like Allysin is the only thing that ( Read more... )

So I have decided to dye my hair before I move. Nothing as drastic as it used to be. Im to grown for that. Not really. But I don't think my old Purple hair with bubble gum pink streaks will get much approval. I only wanted to take advantage before I go back to work. With this last surgery I won't be able to work for three months. Who knows how much ( Read more... )

Allysin is almost a year old. Im amazed. This isnt why im writting, it would be a waste of time to pretend so.I've been thinking alot about my past here recently. Things I've done. People I've hurt. And the way it affected thier lives afterward. I feel terrible. How do I deserve my beautiful little girl? Im a terrible person, I've broken so many ( Read more... )

Dear Sasha,

So...we are moving to Ohio in two months, before my birthday.....I don't know what to say. I can honestly say I do not want to go. But I can also say it is whats best. We still can't tell anyone, which is killing me. I have friends I want to warn so I can spend time with them. I can only tell my family. My mom is pretty upset and sad but ( Read more... )

Dear Sasha,

So things are....yea. Things are things. Here in the last week its been pretty hectic but nothing I can't handle. My schizo minutes are happening again but its whatever you know. I can deal with those minutes. I am trying to volunteer at my church. Problem. I have this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that it may not end entirely ( Read more... )

11 Random facts about me

1. People have called me Sephy for 13years all because of a final fantasy bad guy who we all know and love, Sephiroth. I used to have knee length white blonde hair.

2. I LOVE chicken broccoli casserole

3. My favorite book is The Outsiders because I think every generation can connect to it ^_^

4. I am a gamer at heart

5. I love ( Read more... )

I wish I had something to say right now to let you kow everything is ok and that im doing just fine. But I can't. I have nothing to say to that effect. If I did it would be a flat out lie. everything has gone to shit.

Tim and I are starting to get back to okay. He thinks I just have a problem with holding onto the past. I do. But it's not just my ( Read more... )

This is the absolute worst time of year for me. I almost wish it would snow here just so it would match my chaotic mind right now. Blank white, dead, cold. All the things I keep pushing to the very back of my mind so that I can be in a good state of mind to feel happy for the things going on. No I am not always depressed. Only when this feeling ( Read more... )

Doubts. We all have them, most of the time they are unwarrented. In this case i'm not sure. I don't know what to think to be honost. usually my dreams are pretty on point as to what is irritating me when I can figure out what. But this doesnt make sense and at the same time makes perfect sense. I keep dreaming about when I found out I was pregnant ( Read more... )