Let's cheers to this
yI've got my GED now, Im enrolled for my core classes starting in 8 days. My vision will finally be fixed in 4 days. And I can finally go back to work in a week when my car has new tags and I get my new Ohio lisence.
But it still isn't enough. My mom was just here for a visit. We were able to get professional photos done for the occasion. Other then that my mom had no time with Allysin. I feel like it wasn't a visit. Well it was, it was just highly monitered. I couldn't have one conversation with my mom with just her and I. Thats all I wanted. But every time I would try to sneak out with her while she had a cigarette so that I could talk to her in private...Tim poped up. And the one time I had a cigarette in my mouth when he popped up he gave me a dirty look and walked away. WTF?!?
You get private time with your family......mine is here for not even 12 hours and I can't get five minutes with just her and I? Really? Fuck you. Fuck you and Fuck your family. We planned this visit with my mom for weeks! And the week before my mom comes here your family takes off to go visit other family. Really? I'm here for all of your family, yet when it comes to mine it just doesn't fucking matter?
I wasn't able to go to my ex father in laws funeral because of your family and you all telling me how it wasn't real family so it just wasn't a good idea. FUCK YOU!!!!! He was family and he was the only memeber of my in laws who gave a damn about me!
Now my grandmother is ill, this september we have been planning a trip with my dad and sister to go see her for her birthday as it may be her last. And your mom tells me "Well if you guys can't go then you can't go." Your fucking joking right? "Well why are you going? Is this your blood grandmother?"
No she isn't blood. My dad isn't blood related, he's still my fucking dad and she is my grandmother. She helped raise me for ten years. If it was your family we would be there come hell or high water. But with my family the response it "Well, play it by ear. If Timmy has the time off then go but I don't think he should ask for the time off to go."
Fine, he doesn't have to go. My daughter and I however are going. I will be able to see and drive by then so your family can kiss my fucking ass. They haven't made an effort to meet my dad. He's been in town several times when we lived in Clermont. each time they were cnvieniantly to busy to see him. Even when I offered to bring him to thier house! Are you fucking kidding me?!?
I don't know what to do. I'm respectful of his family. I'm polite and I make an effort to chat with them when they visit or we visit them. I do all the house cleaning, cooking, laundry and I take care of animals that aren't mine. Can I get an ounce of fucking respect over here? It's not like I'm Tim who sits and sulks on his phone and computer around my family while complaining the whole time that he's hungry. I told you to get food earlier. If your hungry go eat!
I put on a smile. I don't let anyone see when i'm mad or that no I don't agree with you. So stop pushing it. I don't bitch when after countless times of telling you "Ally can't have peanuts or strawberries" and you fucking feed them to her anyways. And before you give it to her I say "She can't have that." I'm not even my own childs mother! I don't get to choose how to raise my own child are you fucking kidding me!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck it. I'm so done with this "family" This isn't a "family" it's a self centered universe where only they matter and everyone else can fucking wait.
FUCK ALL OF YOU! MY FAMILY MATTERS TO!
I'M ALREADY WORKING WITH MY MOM, DAD AND SISTER ON HOW TO GET ME AND MY DAUGHTER BACK TO FLORIDA!!! lETS SEE HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU DON'T GET TO SEE ALLYSIN LIKE THEY DON'T AND THEN WHEN I MAKE PLANS FOR HER THE ONLY WEEKEND YOUR IN TOWN SO YOU DON'T GET TO SEE HER!
I'll go to KY by myself. I'm sure my KY family will pitch in to get me the $200 I need to drive out there.
fucking done with it,
Sephy
Sephy