Dear Sasha,

So...we are moving to Ohio in two months, before my birthday.....I don't know what to say. I can honestly say I do not want to go. But I can also say it is whats best. We still can't tell anyone, which is killing me. I have friends I want to warn so I can spend time with them. I can only tell my family. My mom is pretty upset and sad but ( Read more... )

Dear Sasha,

So things are....yea. Things are things. Here in the last week its been pretty hectic but nothing I can't handle. My schizo minutes are happening again but its whatever you know. I can deal with those minutes. I am trying to volunteer at my church. Problem. I have this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that it may not end entirely ( Read more... )

I finally have an appointment with my head doctor. March 7th can't get here fast enough. I know I will be put on medication. And I am alright with that. I can't keep doing what Im doing now. It just doesnt work. Im always paranoid, tired, upset, depressed and worst of all having flashbacks everyday now. They suck. You have no idea what it's like to ( Read more... )

 Sasha,

It's been awhile since i've written to you. I have this strange feeling that something bad is going to happen soon. Not with the baby. the baby is doing wonderfully. It's Tim. He's differant lately. We don't talk as much anymore. We actually dont do much of anything anymore. i know we work opposite scheduals and all. But it's strange. He ( Read more... )

 So today began like any other day. Woke up, went to work, wished Tim a good day. And work was great too. Everyone was calm and chill, work was gettin done without me over doing it. And then suddenly not so good. I started to feel cramping.

I thought, maybe i moved wrong again. So I sat down and tried to breath. Only the pain got worse. I went to ( Read more... )

 thankfully today was the last day I had to go to my crappy government funded doctors office out in leesburg. Where they need to be reminded I speak english and how to do thier job as well. Ugh. I had to remind the doctor I needed a physical and that I had yet been given an accurate measurment of my uterus to see exactly how far along I am. Which ( Read more... )