I had a very good day but a very tiring day. Had the first class of my directed readings course, which was excellent but intense, and was preceded by a meeting with my brilliant supervisor re: the thesis. It's wonderful to work with someone who is so much smarter than me, but also intimidating (though she works very hard to make me feel comfortable ( Read more... )

So my strategy to force myself to write this paper through paralyzing writer's block is to listen "Walk Through the Fire" from Once More with Feeling on repeat. For hours.

PS - How bad do we all want a Supernatural musical episode?

So I've been putting together a very tentative, WIP, just scratching the surface bibliography of stuff for my thesis. It is in no way complete. I have barely begun.

THIS THING IS 1100 WORDS. Just citation - no annotation or anything.

Oh fandom.

So my dear and brilliant friend dress_myself_up  wrote a very excellent post partially inspired by our earlier conversation about fans and love and our painful affect studies course. Therein she rightfully calls me out on my inability to stay on topic, and says many other excellent things. Y'all should read it before you read this, which is essentially a response ( Read more... )

So I am currently taking this course called "Affect, Ideology and the Media." I find affect studies fascinating and I love it, but it's also new to me and thus confusing. (Affect being, roughly and not uncontroversially, emotion). I am also a little discouraged by the overwhelming focus in academia on negative emotions (fear, paranoia, shame, anger ( Read more... )

So I just spent a couple of hours wandering around Youtube watching con videos. I think I'm getting pretty damn good at filtering out screaming to understand highly caffeinated J/J/Misha. This was therefore a useful learning experience I figure, and preparation for VanCon. Also, I am learning what kinds of questions should be asked (and which ( Read more... )

I'm feeling really low energy today, and yesterday, despite eating well. Bear with my lack of peppy-ness.

Taught my first real class this term today, and started my new class "Ideology, Affect and the Media". Affect is completely new for me and there are only 6 people in my class, so I'm a tad intimidated. But hopefully I'll have lots of time, so I ( Read more... )

It's funny how I left home optimistic and excited to start a new term and a new year, but the moment I got here that all just died. Something about this place - the city, the apartment, the campus - just makes me feel cold and lethargic. All I want to do is sit, eat shit food, and watch Bones. Which I can't afford to do all the time. I'm gonna go ( Read more... )

Shit I just realized how long it has been since I updated before today, sooo...things that matter since last time ( Read more... )

So my 2010 resolutions are as follows:

1. Better communication avec my room mates/family/crazy people who are driving me insane.
2. Back on my lovely Leslie Sansone exercising tapes!
3. Stick to work routine to prevent nervous breakdown.
4. Write home more often.
5. Be kind to myself.

Honestly, I have a lot of work cut out for me in 2010. Thesis need not ( Read more... )