The past week or so have kind of sucked so far until now. I was pretty hard hit by the visit to that GP and frustrated and upset about how things had gone. I'd come away with the sense again that no one could really help me. I didn't know what to do and it was just too much for me to cope with.( Read more... )

I had a little bit of a reminder of who I really am today. Can't say it's a revelation but it’s made my day! I know it's something I have felt for a very long time. This all happened after chatting to a person on IRC who identifies as non-gendered. This person is just so beautiful and handsome at the same time. It really reminded me of who I am ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up in a terrible mood and very tired. I had gone to bed at 8:30pm to wake up for 5am for work but I was still very tired. Things started to get worse when I started to question what I have been trying to work out these last few months. I associated this bad mood as feeling male, and I hated myself. I didn’t know why I was ( Read more... )

I have been having some interesting thoughts and feelings lately and wanted to share them. I wondered whether there were any other people who agree or disagree with my new stance on things.

In my opinion there really is no such thing as a finite man or a woman in a gender related sense. There are definitely many people who are physically ( Read more... )

It has been far too long since I last wrote a journal entry. I am finally ready to write one and feel a burning need to write a long detailed one about what has been going on in my life. I never want to stop writing my journal because I feel its important that I continue. Its important because it will help me release all the events, situations and ( Read more... )

The past week or so has been so good for me. I am even finding it difficult to write this now but I will try hard. The memories seem to bring up all the anxiety again, and I can’t cope very well with that.

It all seemed to start before I visited my girlfriend in London. I had been playing with genderqueer ideas in my head a lot. This was ( Read more... )