What a long and eventful day yesterday was! It started at 5am as usual on my early shift work pattern. I went to work and going about my daily tasks when I received a text message from my mom at 8:30am; Hi Alex. Need to talk to you. Will come over after school. Be there about 5. Love M xxx.  My stress levels just seemed to go through the roof ( Read more... )

I have wanted to write something down for a week or so now have not been sure where to start. I thought about writing a few words down like keywords and try to write around these words. Obviously single words or sentences are easier to start with. At this point my house mate has turned his music on and it’s made it more difficult to think.

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I feel I am living on some kind of old fashioned weighing scales today. I am feeling on one side a sense of androgyny and on the other femininity. To be honest when I feel this androgyny it doesn’t give me so much angst of course as when I am feeling very much that I am a female. In a way I still feel I am female yet I feel a positive feeling ( Read more... )

I feel in a confused state of mind this morning yet I can’t understand why. Maybe it is something to do with what I talked about with my counsellor. The things that we talked about are probably quite true and they seem to sound like sense. Yet I just don’t know what it all means now and in the future of my life. I think there must be more to it ( Read more... )

This morning I felt very strange and it is difficult to describe how I felt. The largest feelings are frustration, irritation and depression. I feel I am frustrated with what seems like absolutely everything.  I am actually irritated and frustrated by my own presence. I think the best explanation I can think of for feeling this way is tiredness. ( Read more... )