Ok, so I usually check daily on how much is left on the gas and electricity meters here (they're both key/card pay as you go ones, not because of us, they were like that when we moved in), but I REALLY wish

Well, once it got started anyway.

I went to bed far too late, mostly due to deciding to kick things off on OKCupid again. I figure there's very little to lose, and thinking about new friends and potential new lovers should get my mind off lingering on Amanda. Anyways, so I went to bed around 6am ( Read more... )

I hate being alone.

That is THE worst thing right now.

It doesn't matter to me what Amanda and Raven do together, but it HURTS that I'm alone.

Ok, so yesterday started about ( as shitty as it could... )

It's occurred to me that some people might look at what I've been ranting about about Raven, and knowing Amanda when I met her might think that I did the same thing to her previous ex, Michael. She was still living with him when I started talking to her.

Well, this is the perspective I had, from the 2nd IM chat with her ever on 17th July 2004:

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He's here.

( Time to rant )

I wonder what the theories about Karma say about being involved in the breaking of a heart.

Because if Karma does exist then two people have clocked up a whole bunch of negative Karma with their part in creating my current situation.

I seem to be becoming increasingly more bitter about the whole thing, and have taken to plain ignoring Amanda now.
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Amanda is in love with Raven ( Read more... )

It has come to light that Raven, previously referred to as 'the other guy' or 'tog' found that labelling hurtful and does prefer to be called Raven. I've apologised to him in another post, but I'm not going to edit previous entries to reflect that, as I dislike that kind of revisionist history, but I'd just like to set the record straight for all ( Read more... )