Time to rant
Mistakes have been made.
Amanda made the mistake of not breaking things off cleanly with me before getting involved with Raven. She fooled herself into believing she could love us both, or at least treat us both with enough respect to make something poly work.
Raven didn't walk away when he felt himself falling in love, in the full knowledge that the target of that love was already involved with someone else.
I made the mistake of thinking a poly thing could work out. I should have walked away as soon as it was mentioned. I also made the mistake of ever thinking I'd found someone who wouldn't abandon me. It's hardly the first time it's happened to me.
Raven. I said before that I hoped we'd get on, but that was before my last conversation with Amanda. In that conversation she said that it didn't matter what the situation was between her and myself (my being a better boyfriend, us being married, whatever) she'd still want you (given hindsight, that's "you instead").
The best I can offer you now is that I will ignore you when you're here and be civil when I can't ignore you. There is a steadily growing hate in me now for you and your presence will only make that worse. I fervently wish my money could have been sorted out in time for me to have moved away before you arrive, but that's not going to happen.
Amanda, you still express the wish for us to be friends. But look at what you've done. You've strung me along whilst you fell in love with someone else. The first I hear about it, other than my own minor suspicions from all the obvious IM'ing going on with one person, is "can't I have you both". And as it turns out you were lying to yourself when you asked that. You gave me *NOTHING* since then, which is what lead to me declaring myself single. You didn't even THINK or consult me about Raven coming here to stay, being only a selfish bitch thinking about yourself.
Ask heaven_here_21 (Nikki) about how I act when betrayed like that (yup, she's one of the ones that has done it to me in the past). You'll be lucky if I'm talking to you in another 2 years, let alone 6 months.
I am alone again. I have even less chance of trusting anyone again. I will do all I can to find the courage to just end my life, and yes Amanda, that WILL be on your conscience.