I love him. I can't let go. I need intimacy. I need kissing. I need that adorable smile. He means everything to me. I don't want fighting anymore. I don't want to move on. I dont want to love someone else. I want things the way they were. I want us to be together one day again. I miss summer. I miss our memories. I miss his berretta *weirdly* but I ( Read more... )

So yeah things have been alot better, I think I'm just getting back to finally being happy again. I got a new cell phone, i love it, but sometimes it makes me mad. grrrr. Work has been wonderful, well sometimes its fun, when im not working with stupid Kim. Hung out with loser amanda on friday night, and went to the rez and bank. It was so much fun ( Read more... )

Wow so I dunno...yesterday was my first day without drinking since last sunday,it sucked so bad. I hated it more than anything. It's very bad of me that I did that, because now i'm addicted to drinking bacardi razz....just because it helps me to sleep better. Blah things have been all fucked up since my last entry. X-Mas Rob ruined it by telling me ( Read more... )

I'm not scared of change, as far as myself, I'm scared of it as far as everything around me changing,I can't handle that part. Like the littlest change, upsets me, it makes me feel weird and sometimes upset. I dont even want to give my example of the littlest change to me, because I know everyone will think i'm stupid. Plus I feel it today over ( Read more... )

I dunno....everything seems to be changing, i cannot handle it very well. thats the fault right there. its changing to fast not slow enough, i dont like it. I guess I dont feel like growing up so fast, I wish I could stay young forever. Have fun and never deal with responsibilities. But when I take a good look at the real big picture, it scares me ( Read more... )

I just wish he would realize that in order to stop fighting things need some effort not only from me, but from him. If you know its too hard to let go of me, than if u want to hold on, just work at it, how fucking hard is that? he's just so damn irratating. but I love him. this sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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You know that feeling after meeting someone you fall for the first time,and the feeling you get when ur going to see them again? its like ur anxious and u get butterflies, but it makes you so incredibly happy and ecstatic about seeing them. Well....i find myself always having that feeling when I get too see Rob. But i also get that feeling of ( Read more... )

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