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I love him. I can't let go. I need intimacy. I need kissing. I need that adorable smile. He means everything to me. I don't want fighting anymore. I don't want to move on. I dont want to love someone else. I want things the way they were. I want us to be together one day again. I miss summer. I miss our memories. I miss his berretta *weirdly* but I do, I grew onto it. Just because we spent so much time in it. I miss holding his hand. I miss kissing him whenever. I miss cuddling with him and him keeping me warm. I miss everything. I dont think I can handle the thought of not having him there completely. He's everything to me. He's all I've ever wanted and more. I miss him telling me how beautiful I am. And how I was everything to him. And how I make him so happy. Does he realize he's irreplacable? He is. I don't want anyone else. I want him. I want to spend my birthday with him. I dont even really care about going out with my friends. I want him go to canada with me, like we planned. but he won't be here. I dont even have him around for Valentines Day. I wish I did, so I could show him how much I love him. I wish I could see him, push him up against my car and kiss him and never stop. I hate love, because now I know what It feels like to be truely in love. It is the best thing ever. But yet the person it happened with, I'm glad it happened with. He's the best thing to ever come into my life. I got to stop, I'm done, I love him i can't help it, and if I want to be intimate with anyone, I want it with him still. He's means the world to me.