*Whenever Ur Ready,I Can Be Urs In A Second Or So.Oh,Baby Come And Get Me,My Heart Is Sittin' On Go*
You know that feeling after meeting someone you fall for the first time,and the feeling you get when ur going to see them again? its like ur anxious and u get butterflies, but it makes you so incredibly happy and ecstatic about seeing them. Well....i find myself always having that feeling when I get too see Rob. But i also get that feeling of forgetting everything I wanted to say to him, when I see him. Its like when i'm with him I capture the moment and take an impression in my mind. Because one day he could just go away for good, and having those impressions in your mind as memories is alot more meaningful than what you and that person talked about. I'd rather sit there and stare at Rob with a smile remembering every little detail of him. Because I have come to realize not alot of things last forever, people will walk in and out of your life. With Rob, i dont really know if he wants to stay in it or out of it, its confusing. Here's another ordeal......
Some people dont really know what love is. I thought at one time, that i knew what love was, but i was wrong. Love is an endless feeling you feel, love is not some capturing a part of your heart, love is when your entire heart is filled with this feeling of happiness. that if something wrong happens between u and someone you love, and you go 4 weeks with being truely unhappy. That the one you love can come around with that key to your heart,unlock it, and instantly that smile comes upon your face, and it doesnt leave even after they leave you again. I get that feeling everytime with Rob, I could be the biggest pain in the ass for a week or so on. The minute I get to see him, I just instantly smile, and I love spending every moment of being with him. I mean even though seeing him for a short period of time sucks ass, i still enjoy it.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I mean I hate the feeling of not being able to be with him right now. And I hate the feeling of waiting to be with him for a long time. But I also hate the thought of moving on to someone else. I dont want to be with anyone else, so I thought about going away to college to get away from this place for awhile and working on myself. But I know even that would be to hard for me to do. Any way I try at looking at trying to avoid a long wait, I know I couldn't do it. So the only thing I could come up with, is working all day every day, just so I couldn't go out and I'd have nothing to think about. I can pay all my bills off, save up money for an apartment, fix my car little by little, and also go to college.....sounds like a plan. Very boring life, but I guess if someone wants to get over you, I guess you shouldnt just sit there and ponder, i'll just go back to what I was doing when I first met Rob. And i'll finish getting my life on track and worry about myself and my needs for awhile. Its going to be hard, but i got to do something because i know Rob is going to try and forget about me, So I have to do it.
but one thing i have learned from being with Rob, is real love and how it feels. I never felt so happy being with one person like him my entire life. And I also learned that love can do many good things and bring such an intense happiness to you. It brings this feeling that can be felt all over and thru every little vein of your body just knowing your with someone that has shown you real love. And the feeling never leaves you whether ur together or apart, its always there. But the only thing real love doesnt do, is save those 2 people in love from breaking that love apart. Love can only do so much, but it takes the two people who feel it, to use their hearts, follow it, and realize how great of a love they have together.
thats my update.......love you's!
Some people dont really know what love is. I thought at one time, that i knew what love was, but i was wrong. Love is an endless feeling you feel, love is not some capturing a part of your heart, love is when your entire heart is filled with this feeling of happiness. that if something wrong happens between u and someone you love, and you go 4 weeks with being truely unhappy. That the one you love can come around with that key to your heart,unlock it, and instantly that smile comes upon your face, and it doesnt leave even after they leave you again. I get that feeling everytime with Rob, I could be the biggest pain in the ass for a week or so on. The minute I get to see him, I just instantly smile, and I love spending every moment of being with him. I mean even though seeing him for a short period of time sucks ass, i still enjoy it.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I mean I hate the feeling of not being able to be with him right now. And I hate the feeling of waiting to be with him for a long time. But I also hate the thought of moving on to someone else. I dont want to be with anyone else, so I thought about going away to college to get away from this place for awhile and working on myself. But I know even that would be to hard for me to do. Any way I try at looking at trying to avoid a long wait, I know I couldn't do it. So the only thing I could come up with, is working all day every day, just so I couldn't go out and I'd have nothing to think about. I can pay all my bills off, save up money for an apartment, fix my car little by little, and also go to college.....sounds like a plan. Very boring life, but I guess if someone wants to get over you, I guess you shouldnt just sit there and ponder, i'll just go back to what I was doing when I first met Rob. And i'll finish getting my life on track and worry about myself and my needs for awhile. Its going to be hard, but i got to do something because i know Rob is going to try and forget about me, So I have to do it.
but one thing i have learned from being with Rob, is real love and how it feels. I never felt so happy being with one person like him my entire life. And I also learned that love can do many good things and bring such an intense happiness to you. It brings this feeling that can be felt all over and thru every little vein of your body just knowing your with someone that has shown you real love. And the feeling never leaves you whether ur together or apart, its always there. But the only thing real love doesnt do, is save those 2 people in love from breaking that love apart. Love can only do so much, but it takes the two people who feel it, to use their hearts, follow it, and realize how great of a love they have together.
thats my update.......love you's!