So, today I turned 50 years old.  In AARP's eyes, I am now a senior citizen.  Wow - I'm speechless ( Read more... )

So I just updated my profile. Changed "Recently single after an 8 1/2 year relationship" to "I'm single." Saw Karl (the ex) briefly today - he stopped by to give me a check for our timeshare maintenance fees. He's on his way to trucking school and will be driving a truck for a living after that. Wow. The longer we're apart (especially since he ( Read more... )

Here's a picture of Ruth, one of my cats. I had to put her to sleep yesterday. It's a sad time. But isn't this a great picture?


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So, here we are, at work, while outside the bombsquad is investigating a suspicious package dropped in a sewer. And here we are, told to stay inside. Oh yeah, the FBI is coming too. But we're still supposed to stay here, right across the street from where the bomb was found. And oh yeah, they're going to turn off the electricity in a few ( Read more... )

Back at work for the first time in almost a week. For the past 1/2 hour I've heard and for the next 2 hours I will hear of the holiday happenings being shared back and forth between the middle-aged women who work around me. It's so funny living in cublicle land (I had a private office for the last 5 or so years at my previous job) and hearing ( Read more... )

I am soooooo glad 2005 is over. What a hell of a year it was. It wasn't the year itself that was bad - well, yes it was. But it seemed to be a culmination of all the shit I've gone through in the past few years. Or maybe I just "felt" some of it for the first time. Anyway, I'm glad it's over ( Read more... )

So, why is it that one can mourn for a failed relationship for months and then one day be done with it? Is it timing? I've heard that for every year of a relationship, you mourn one month after it ends. Coincidentally, we were together for 8 1/2 years and it has now been just over 8 months since the break-up and I'm over it. "It" being the ( Read more... )

So here it is, Thanksgiving. I have chosen to spend the day by myself at home. I have to work tomorrow, so didn't want to make the trek to and from Chicago in one day. I also just wanted to spend some time by myself. It's OK. I've learned that being alone is sometimes good for you. And that's where I'm at right now. Between working 2 jobs ( Read more... )

Interesting week. I made a major decision on Wednesday to leave my church and start looking for a more intimate church. I've been struggling with a lack of motivation or desire to be there. It finally dawned on me when I was driving to Chicago Sunday morning that I didn't miss or feel bad at all about not being in church. That's not good. ( Read more... )

Well, this evening has definitely turned out different than I thought it would. I don't have to work my FT job tomorrow, so went out to the local gay bar at around 11 pm when I didn't feel like going to bed. I still laugh at myself when I catch myself wanting to stay up late when I don't have to get up for work in the morning ( Read more... )