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I made myself puke tonight...But this is the first time in a *very* long time.

I'm turning comments off on this, because I know that they'd be negative. All I can say is that it just felt "right," so to speak. That in and of itself is fucked up; I realize that. I am fucked up. I'm sorry for that ( Read more... )

Didn't wanna get out of bed. Finally forced myself to at around 1:30 in the afternoon ( Read more... )

Well, besides the momentary distraction that my new bra provided, Saturday pretty much sucked. It wasn't any one thing in particular, but primarily just my shitty mood. It never fails...everything will be fine, but my mind will go to these dark places. It's difficult to describe ( Read more... )

There is some really awful stuff going on. Seriously bad, not just stupid shit that I'm blowing out of proportion...this is really really bad and wrong. I can't write about this now. I am so upset like you wouldn't believe. I would tell you guys to ask my mom about what's happening, but I know that not all of you have access to her. So I'm sorry. I ( Read more... )

Hey. I’m mental. This is a fact. Just stating that as a head’s up.

( put behind a cut because as I said, I’m mental, and for no good reason, so I’d totally understand if you didn’t wanna see me ramble on miserably )

Got back from school about 45 minutes ago. I stayed behind later than anyone else. I could not concentrate. My mind kept wandering in freakish ways. I’m still very upset about yesterday. I think I’m losing it. I wanted to cry right there in the middle of Business Math, and now, at this moment, I want to be outside of my head. And I don’t care how. ( Read more... )

I’m going to try writing about things that happened yesterday. Yesterday being almost completely god awful, to the point that I couldn’t bring myself to sit down and jot anything down at the time; I was too upset ( Read more... )

Do you ever get the feeling that there's something really, really wrong with you? I am so mad right now. So mad. And for nothing.

Sometimes I really think I’m losing it. I’ve been so nuts today, and I’ve only been up for a little over an hour! I have no idea why, but I just woke up with an ever increasing irritability. Frank left to take my mother to work, and I sat around as I always do, watching tv and listening to music, but intermittently I’d have this feeling come over ( Read more... )

I did something bad tonight. Real bad. I'm making this private, at least for now, but I'm still putting it behind a cut.

( Bad stuff... )