This has truly become a lost weekend...quite literally.

I barely remember yesterday, spent most of today in and out of consciousness, and I seem to have genuinely lost my mind. I have been the most godawful, raving bitch today. I don't feel like myself at all. I think this sickness is honestly messing with my mind. It's the only thing I can

Well, I'm here again. Didn't think I would be, but life is surprising sometimes ( Read more... )

Today is fucking ruined. I just got into a HUGE, HUGE blowout with my mother. She was vicious and out of control. Even the roommate tried to step in on my behalf. She's so fucking cruel sometimes. It's unbelievable. I totally freaked, shaking and crying. I'm still shaking now. I'm so, so upset ( Read more... )

Commencing Update #2.

I guess I should finally explain what happened all those weeks ago when I was MIA. I haven’t wanted to talk about it, but I think I owe it to people, especially in light of my newfound desire for honesty.

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Have you ever done something awful and wanted so badly to tell someone...a specific someone? You want to tell them because you want them to say that it's "Okay." That everything will be "Okay." But you can't tell them. Ever. You just can't and it kills you ( Read more... )

Why oh why do I do such completely f-ed up things? I mean I do shit that defies explanation. It begins to head into mental ward territory ( Read more... )

Hey. I don’t really know what to say, but I thought I should say something ( Read more... )

Words cannot express how horrendous this day has been ( Read more... )

I have had a hellacious night. If there was a stronger word to use, I would, but I can't think of one right now ( Read more... )

I've been having a rotten day. It's not that anything particularly awful has transpired, it's just that I seem to have lost my fucking marbles and so everything feels about 500% worse than usual. When I haven't been downstairs crying I've been up in my room crying. It's fucking nuts ( Read more... )