Gosh, it snuck up on me....I had no time to prepare, but I've had my "say" and now he's tying up loose ends with other friends. I almost feel cheated because we hung out so out of the blue, but any time is better than no time. I am so much stronger than I once was, too...I could have kissed him tonight; I could have kissed him and made things ( Read more... )

On a sidenote from the main theme of this posting I realize I misquoted and left out some of the A-ha song: it's "today is not my day to find you" and I left out "You're shying away...I'm coming for you anyway" from the last verse...it may not make a difference to you, but it does to me ( Read more... )

Take On Me - A-ha ( Read more... )

I feel like drowning everything in working out right now; if I can't be free of things or start something new and fun in my life I might as well get hot in the process. I'm sick of never having people to hang out with; even my fucking roommates never ask me if I want a drink when they make a pitcher of margaritas or ask if I'd like to go running ( Read more... )

Alright I'm keepin' this one short for the time being, but last night I had a big tap on the shoulder from God telling me my one plan that I hated was wrong to bring with...I can't describe just how much a relief this is. It's nice to know that the thing that's haunted me was supposed to to make me see and not give up when I wanted. Things sure ( Read more... )

I'm beginning to think I shouldn't watch reruns of Dawson's Creek on TBS anymore. At least not while I'm still running from my past; it only seems to remind me of similarities in my own life that before last year never existed. Unfortunately, I love the show, and I don't want to give it up...I just hope that doesn't hold true for my life. I want ( Read more... )

So I started my "I really mean it this time" running/exercise program at 7 this morning with Fil (subsequently after ending the night with him at 3am :-/). Anyway, it felt absolutlely amazing. Then I went to class and worked a dinner/late double...very long day...and yet here I sit at 3am contemplating getting up in 4 or 5 hours to run or do ( Read more... )

Well folks, I started a deadjournal last year, but it just was kind of a burden. I don't want to be depressing or anything related to being "dead," so I decided to stop writing in it, or anything, for about a year, but here I am again in the summer, bored, and looking for a little release...thus my new journal ( Read more... )