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I have only screamed very loud once in my life.
I got scared of myself. It was scary. Nobody is anylonger caring for me. I've lost all my friends. Or I even wonder if I ever had any friends ( Read more... ) -
Hisashiburi neeee~
Long time no see.
I haven't written on LJ for years.
So, I thought.... let's write down some stuff that is pain-in-da-ass right now.I finished my studies. It sucked ( Read more... ) -
Serious!!!!
I am going to write serious stuff here ( Read more... ) -
Thank you LJ...
...for reminding me it's my birthday soon. yaaaay (-_- ) Gosh, I'm not happy at all. I think ( Read more... ) -
Birthday Girls!!
It's a special person's birthday today ^__^
As many of you know, I'm a great fan of Amichan ♥ And today is her birthday!! Along with the wonderful Kimusan aswell ^_^
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The day after...
Sorry about yesterday... man, I was such in a bad mood.
I feel much better today.
Tomorrow I will definetly call the person my doctor recommended me, and get help to put an end to this nightmare I'm living.
I think, the problems I'm having is not only caused by me... it's also the people I'm living it: my family. To be honest, so is my dad a big, big ( Read more... ) -
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I'm just crying and crying. Getting breakdowns after breakdowns.
I don't think I'll ever be healthy again. If something could kill me now, then PLEASE do it. Because I'm SO FUCKING TIRED OF CONSTANTLY LIVING IN HELL.
I wanna scream and yell so there's nothing left of me.
I have nothing left to live for. Please, let me just die.... -
How's life going, Emi??
A little update of what's going on in my life currently.
Well... from on and off my life goes UP and DOWN. When I'm down I go through my own hell... it's not very nice.
Not so long go I decided to contact a doctor to see what she could do for me. We had a little chat through phone and she gave me a new medicine to try. This medicine would make my ( Read more... ) -
I'm writing because I can...
I'm not intending to spend anymore time with you.
You are a swin and a selfish bastard.
I'm sooo gonna die without you. Fucking asshole. -
What's. life....
I feel.... I don't know what I feel. But I have guilt... and... I'm very unhappy.
Things is happening in my life, and I can't handle them.
I have feelings I can't handle.... that's why I sometimes wanna put an end to it all.
Today I don't wanna die... I wanna live. But I'm scared and affraid.....
