I just am yet again fed up.  I just want to be with someone.  I don't want to stop regretting the decisions I've made.  I want to start being happy with them.  And no matter what I do I can't.  I just want to know that I have a future, and I just feel like my future is behind me.  I know I'm only 22, but when I pictured my life when I was younger, ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin.  I hate getting this feeling like all the time!  I just get so frustrated being single.  I don't get it.  I look at the gay guys that I know, not all of them, but I just don't get it.  Everyone is so superficial and self-centered, and I just don't understand how they have guys and I don't.  Like, all the gay guys I ( Read more... )

I don't even know when I last updated or what it was about.  But I just got bored today and figured what the hell, why not update.  I feel like I only update when I have something to bitch about, and no one to bitch to.  I don't know why I'm even upset.  Life is going good.  I moved out into a house that I love living in.  I'm going to school, even ( Read more... )

I need a serious update sometime soon, but i haven't had time to do so.  However, I'm going to Cancun in 2 days!!!!  I can't wait :o)

i fucking hate when you know your teacher is going to cancel class, so you check your email and there is nothing.  So you go to class, and there is the fucking note that says its canceled.  UGH, i hate that!

Ugh, I have so much to update about, I really don't even know where to begin.

Work.  Work has been good?  I don't know.  Its work?  When have I ever had much good to say about my job.  Its been hard because I have been working shitty shifts, and making shitty money, so I haven't been going out as much as i used to.  I miss seeing my friends a lot, ( Read more... )

theres a smile on my face, that won't go away!  But it feels good, so I think I'm gonna keep it there

so i sort of met someone, but i'm not going into details because im sure it will be ruined soon by me.  but we'll see

I really love all of my friends.  I'm not quite sure where I would be without them, and I don't think I want to know.

So I know that I wanted to update a couple days ago, but I just haven't had the motivation.  To be honest, I don't really have it right now, but I'm just bored.  Lately things have been so blah for me I feel.  Well I guess I can't really say that.  I've been having a lot of fun with colleen lately.  I love that we hang out again, it really puts a ( Read more... )