It's been a while....
I don't even know when I last updated or what it was about. But I just got bored today and figured what the hell, why not update. I feel like I only update when I have something to bitch about, and no one to bitch to. I don't know why I'm even upset. Life is going good. I moved out into a house that I love living in. I'm going to school, even though I'm basically failing out and going nowhere. I'm just still missing that big part, a relationship. I've been hooking up with this guy for like 2 months, and I'm assuming we're over as of now. But I just don't get him. It's clear he doesn't want anything more than just hooking up, and as much as I like hooking up with him, I can't just do that. We haven't had sex, or anything even close, and that doesn't really bother me at all. Still I am frustrated because either be with me, or let me go. I don't want an in between stage of not knowing what we are. I just wish it was easier for me to find someone. I'm so over just dating people. I want to find someone to be with. I just keep thinking what would have happened if Myles and I stayed together. I don't know. I probably shouldn't think that way because I'm sure that would never happen again. I guess i just have to stop being such a little bitch about it. Everyone is single at some point. I just want someone to be with. Whatever.